Bounce Back Positive Once Again.

  Roberto Matta

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roberto_Matta 

 

It's amazing that today is already the 1^st of September, it has taken me somewhat by surprise.

My ambition to be able to go outside this spring and summer has not been realised, which is really getting to me now.

I do so love the months from March to August, my favourite is spring when everything is coming to life again.

From the end of February each day becomes longer and there is more light which is so lovely, and by March everything looks promising.

Despite the setback of having to stay in bed I was very optimistic that I would be able to go out in the summer.

Even if I could not manage to experience spring weather outside, I was convinced that the wound would heal in time for me to go out during the summer.

The light months of the year are coming to an end and soon the nights will be getting longer again and I still have not been able to sit in my wheelchair.

It was easier for me to be optimistic at the beginning of spring but now that summer has ended it is more difficult for me to stay optimistic.

Even if it is difficult I am going to do my best to remain as positive as possible, not easy but then the alternative, being negative is not good.

Of course I have my negative moments and as long as they remain moments is all right, anything else would drag me down and Richie too.

Which is something I don't want to happen, today has not been easy but it is only a blip from which I will bounce back and be positive once again.

Spring Equinox

 Remedios Varo.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Remedios_Varo

Today is the Spring Equinox and the days are getting longer and spring is really happening now.

This morning started very gently, the sun was shining and it was a very nice spring day.

Then I had a huge shock when Richie hoisted me out of bed and put me into the shower chair, as he had discovered blood in my catheter.

One of my nightmares is blood flowing in the catheter; luckily it turned out to be a blood clot which happens quite often with catheters and not flowing blood.

Still it gave me quite a turn and got me very upset, especially as it was so sunny and lovely.

It was the last thing on my mind, but then again why should it be on my mind especially on a day like today.

I guess that this is always in the back of my mind and how can it be otherwise with this nasty disease.

What I try to do is be aware without thinking about it all the time and letting it drive me mad with worry.

A difficult balancing act but one which I try to do everyday, most days I manage well and I did even today.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Today Spring Is On Its Way.

Another new week has started, yesterday was grey and cold, heard from my physiotherapist, Mathilda yesterday that there had been a thin layer of snow yesterday morning.

She was shocked when she drew the curtains open and saw snow, luckily an hour later when she left her house it was all but gone.

Must have worried her thinking it was icy and there was a chance she could fall off her bike again.

Mathilda fell off her bike on the ice and broke her wrist, she did not miss one session with me.

Appreciate her visits, feel that regular physiotherapy seems to be good for me and has for sure helped me.

Just had a very pleasant call from my consultant Michelle,from Arca, she rang earlier but will never leave a message.

Funny that she won't leave a message, so I can never ring her back, she was at great pains to let me know that she was ready to spring into action for me.

She is having a holiday on the 24 March and wanted to let me know, she was hoping I had good news for her.

Nice to know Michelle is all geared up to be able to respond quickly and set up mutiple appointments with all the professionals involved.

Today is a sunny day, pretty blue skies and a feeling that spring is really on its way which is wonderful.

I can see that the change in the weather is much appreciated by the dogs who have been charging around happily since they got in from their inspection of the neighbourhood.

Seems to have been a worthwhile exercise as the dogs are full of themselves, think they are so happy because Spike can run free again.
















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Swings and Roundabouts.

It is a cold bright and sunny day today the first cheerful day for a long time here.

The last traces of snow are also gone now, soon be February and the first signs of spring.

We do not get to see or feel the first signs of spring so strongly here in the city, not in quite the same way as in the country.

Living in Reading I noticed the change of the seasons more clearly than here in Amsterdam.

Then again there were no Turkish or Moroccan shops in Reading but there was an excellent Polish delicatessen.

It is all swings and roundabouts, here there are grachts and bridges and narrow houses and many house boats.

Feeling confident about life right now, talking as much as we do really does help us both to cope with our lives now.

Richie recently had a look at several kitchen appliances; he bought a bread making machine and an excellent juicer.

Fresh juice is so good, have been enjoying delicious apple juice and other mixtures such as carrots, dates and orange.

We had our new fridge freezer delivered this morning, Richie is pleased with it, it is half freezer and half fridge.

So now Richie can take advantage of bargains and cook and fill the freezer, he thinks it will be extremely useful.

Like the sound of cauliflower cheese and lasagne and stew and curry or ravioli all being on the menu.

Anything that makes Richie's life easier is very ok with me; our old fridge was 10 years old so it was good timing to get rid of it before we had a crisis.

Remember getting the old fridge, we had got a small fridge from the same shop but it ceased working while the guarantee was valid.

When we went back to the shop, the shopkeeper joked how his calculations had gone wrong this time, he preferred a fridge that broke after the guarantee had expired.

Then he roared with laughter, at our shocked faces, before showing us a fridge with a freezer compartment and letting us have it at a large discount.

We were happy at the time as having any freezer space was brilliant now we needed to move on and update our appliances and wse have.

What I am also happy about today is getting connected without any problems, not after Richie found and ran a diagnostic tool yesterday and when it asked if he wanted the fault repaired he pressed yes.

Seems there had been a low signal, which had been causing the connection problems, this has now been happily resolved

So hope never again to have to do without the internet and my blog like I did for several hours recently where I could only play free cell and long to visit blogs.

Life is good.

Again a good night’s sleep which is brilliant as it means it a good day for me and for Richie.

It’s really great to have so many people to communicate with via blogs.

This communication so very important to me, it’s good to get so much supportive feedback really wonderful.

I like getting comments from people and enjoy being able to visit other blogs and read other peoples stories and leave my comment.

In the relative short time I have been communicating with other bloggers I have noticed how important these relationships have become.

Being able to give and receive support is crucial for dealing with life especially life with a handicap or disease.

We humans do need each other we are social group animals and it is the group dynamics that maintains our ability to survive and adapt to our surroundings and to whatever life throws our way.

It is very nice to be told that my blog is an inspiration to others because I have found other peoples blog to be inspirational for me. The blog world is full of lovely people.

At times I get very down hearted and scared of what lies round the corner but have learned that I can not know that now and it is pointless time wasting to spend any time on ' what if ' and ' when ' and ' what do we do when ' would rather spend the time enjoying the here and now.

The here and now today is very pleasant the sun is shining the kids from the neighbourhood are playing outside and the days are getting longer as we move slowly towards springtime.

And I am watching the movie Priscilla Queen of the Desert.

Life is good.