John Stoa.
Scottish Artist.
There is a layer of snow on everything outside this morning, seems there was a light snow fall during the night.
We did see it start to snow late last night not too long before Richie turned the lights off; this morning woke up early as it was freezing in the bedroom.
Richie jumped up and closed the window and put another blanket n me which helped me sleep on again which was very welcome.
Woke up later crying because of the pain in my arms, they hurt a lot now, so much more than even last month.
Getting quite scared about how my MS has accelerated just recently, maybe the sp catheter operation has made the progress faster but maybe it was happening anyway.
In 2006 my fingers started tingling but they still functioned alright, could put up with the pain in the morning and the clumsiness and lack of sensation if they still function.
Hate the pain and the weird feeling of having wooden arms up to the elbows, which is a strange sensation.
I am listening to BBC Radio 5 right now, they are discussing England’s World Cup bid for 2018.
Weird for me listening and thinking that my chances of being still alive then are tiny indeed, strange to think that, really odd to think that I may very well be alive to see the 2018 World Cup.
Very aware that what I have to constantly remind myself to stay n the present in the here and now and enjoy these precious moments.
I am not a fortune teller so better not to speculate about time and dates but difficult for me not to wonder sometimes what will happen next.
