Snowy Afternoon in Amsterdam.

I am doing my best to keep optimistic, despite being told by Richie last night that the wound has slightly re-opened again.

Boo hoo hope it heals quickly as I have plans to get out as soon as this cold snap is over.

What a setback, especially now when we thought, there was no danger of it opening again, not after being healed up for three months.

Who would have thought, that the ex wound would open again.

Boo Hoo so need to see the nurse quickly for his advice, I mailed him last night and he will be here tomorrow.
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Ton will be here in the afternoon together with the ergotherapist Ludwine, hope they will be able to work out what the hell happened to cause this to occur.

We are both quite paranoid now, especially Richie who has done nothing differently than he has been doing since I have been in bed.

Very pleased that both Ton and Ludwine, from the Amsterdam Rehabilitation Clinic (RCA) can come here tomorrow, as they are so very good.

So no sitting round in the wheelchair for me, certainly not until we have spoken to the experts tomorrow.

Find if really shit we do not know how it happened, Monday it was fine and then yesterday there it was abit of blood and its a tiny bit open again.

I did not ask Richie for all the details, but did manage to ask if it was a crater again and he said no, said that maybe the skin was very dry and fragile and had torn slightly.

Then he spent some time cleaning and bandaging it up/

I am trying to stay optimistic.

Took a sleeping tablet to ensure I did not lie awake all last night thinking about that and the fact Spike is ill.

He went to the vet’s and they did x-rays and a scan, he has arthritis in three places, the knee is inflamed and pretty sore, he has a spot where he hurt his spine and up by his neck.

Poor little gut is now on medication for the next two weeks.

Boo!!Hoo!! on both counts.

Wishing I could sit right now, funny have noticed again today how I always want what I can’t have, guess I can’t be so different from everyone else.

That helps, me remembering that I am only human, thanks Cranky @ Musings of a Cranky Caregiver
http://musingsofacrankycaregiver.blogspot.com/2009/12/yep-im-human.html

for writing about that in your recent post ‘’ Yep I’m Human’’

Difficult to relax today, but will take it as easy as possible this evening, I may need another pill to help me sleep otherwise I could lay awake all night worrying and second guessing what Ton and Ludwine may say tomorrow.

Have to stay in the here and now.

The New Football Season has started.

Optimism.


It was a huge relief once the meeting was over yesterday, felt extremely tired afterwards.

The worse of those meetings is all the questions that bubble up when the meeting is over.

Never know whether it went well or not and the more time elapses the more convinced I get that I have mucked it all up.

Yesterday my questions were: will it get done well and is my optimism justified.

Hope so; really do think that despite how it feels it is best to approach people optimistically.

Hope that the result is good, just realised just now with great relief, that Jenny, from the RCA will measure exactly how I sit in the adapted w/chair.

She can see if it supports me well and enables me to sit up without danger of getting another pressure sore.

Find that a very reassuring thought that Jenny will be the safeguard so I won’t be a guinea pig.

Mostly I am optimistic, but have had a few unpleasant thoughts that the w/chair won't be well adapted and I get another pressure wound.

That is a nightmare I don't want to have, but it has crossed my mind a few times and got me worrying.

Imagine, all the horror of knowing exactly what lies in store, can’t believe it is a year next week Friday that I have been in bed.

Am looking to reduce stress to a minimum, try not to whip myself up by dwelling on things, and emphasising the wrong elements

Getting stressed is not a good idea, stress and MS are not a good combination and add hot weather and life is not nice at all.

The new Football session has started today, which means the end of summer is approaching rapidly.

Real shame as despite the unbearable hot days it has been a good summer, wish I could have been out there.

Been ready since February for the moment when I could see something other than this room.

I don’t mind it getting colder but it is the sudden darkness at the end of October when night time is so much longer.

My favourite months are March to June when life is bursting out all over and the days are getting longer.

This time of year, when it is not dark until 10 pm is very nice, mind you have noticed already that it is dark just before 10 pm.

That is a sign summer is getting to its peak and then we should have I hope a pleasant autumn for me to venture out in.


I am enjoying the football coverage on the radio, it is on BBC Radio 5

http://www.bbc.co.uk/fivelive/

Have a good Saturday, think I will as Hull just got their first goal of the season against Chelsea.

Brilliant hope the season goes on as well as it has started, seems the goal was scored by Steven Hunt, a favourite of mine when he played for Reading.

I am made up, today has just become even better.

Have a good Saturday too.