Monday, October 11, 2010

Sunday, 10, October 2010, Outside On Sunday Afternoon.

 




Outside On Sunday Afternoon.

Yesterday I felt quite anxious probably due to the fact that suddenly in the night from Friday to Saturday I could no longer hear anything with my right ear.

Felt like it was all bunged up, seemed there was nothing that I could do about it except hope that it would soon stop.

Made me feel pretty vulnerable, was not so nice when we went for a stroll around the neighbourhood with the dogs.

Could not hear so well which was pretty scary; did not like it at all that as I could not hear exactly what was happening around me.

Did not feel so safe rolling around outside not hearing very well, glad Richie was with me and could help me if I needed it, luckily I did not need his help.

Slept very well last night, thanks to taking a sleeping tablet as I thought I might lie awake worrying about my ear.

Not such a nice waking up today, but the good news was that my ear was ok again and I could once again hear.

What a relief made me realise how important hearing really is, without the right ear working I felt somehow lopsided, a very odd feeling.

 After Richie cut my hair and showered me I felt very good again, by the time we had finished it was already 14.30 so we had a late brunch and went out.

Caught the last bit of the yearly street market which looked like it had been good fun, it was noticeably c older today despite the beautiful sunshine.

Enjoyed being outside today noticed that next time I will have to wear a scarf and gloves as my neck was cold despite the high collar of my fleece jacket and I d definitely need gloves as my hands were ice cold.

Despite those inconveniences I thoroughly enjoyed myself; it is really good to get outside even if it is only to go around the neighbourhood.

Being outside with Richie and the dogs is good fun and talking to acquaintances and interacting with people we meet on the way is what I love doing very much.

Feeling happy tonight as a result of going out, I am looking forward to the new week and going outside.

Saturday, October 09, 2010

Deal With Things As They Happen.



Sarah Lucas.
 

Yesterday I was quite tired after the excitement of Thursday, amazing what a boost it gave me, so much so that I was still feeling good the day after.

Even today two days after I feel the positive effects of the huge boost it gave me, which was much needed.

Had not expected it to be such a huge effect, has given me lots to think about, it was good to see and feel the life on the street.

When we were out Thursday I had to keep stopping very often as my right arm was getting very tired and somehow it felt like I could not stretch it out enough.

Luckily Richie noticed that the steering was a touch to far away for me to reach it properly which was causing me the discomfort.

Once Richie had adjusted it, I could roll without his help which was even better, it was good that Richie could steer me when I could not but I prefer to do it myself.

Because of the arm problems started immediately to worry that I would not be able to get much further than the market but as soon as I started I stopped.

Could feel right away that even one thought of worrying cast a negative shadow, which is not what I need.

Difficult to stop worry and getting negative guess the only thing I can keep doing is remain aware.

Be vigilant and every time I do feel down and start to worry to remind myself to take it one step at a time.

I can not do more; it is not easy to do, often even when I feel extremely positive I can still worry.

Guess worrying is only natural, so not going to try to suppress it, what I will do is deal with things as they happen, that is all I can and will do.


Friday, October 08, 2010

Great Fun Yesterday.



Self Portrait.

Lucian Freud.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lucian_Freud

Quiet day today after yesterday’s excitement of going to the market, enjoyed myself there so much.

Richie told me later at home that I had been beaming the whole time we were out.

Could see that on the two photos Richie took, I look very happy indeed and so I was.

Best day for a very long time; really great getting down the market once again after two pretty long years.

Was good fun rolling around the market again and looking at the stalls and saying hello to some of the stall holders.

So good to see that the stalls looked as good as I had remembered them also good to see new shops and cafes.

Nice to see that the market and the shops and cafes on the street have not remained the same but are still constantly changing.

That is how life should be, always evolving and changing and not stagnating, good to see.

Brilliant to be out and about again in my neighbourhood gave me a huge boost and made me feel good.

Good to enjoy every moment that I possibly can, good to be open to these moments.

Will try to stay as open as possible.












Thursday, October 07, 2010

Brilliant Visit To The Market.

 


On The Market.
It has been a great day today, the appointment with Wilma from Wi-Care at 12 midday, went very well.

She brought one of their rain capes with her to check if it fitted me and it was a perfect fit.

Then she showed me some colour samples and I choose purple, it will be made quite soon and I should have it in three weeks time.     
              
Which will be brilliant as the rainy autumn weather seems to have started now and I do need to be well equipped.

 I do not intend to go out in a rain storm but if I am well protected then I can go out when it does not look so nice.

This afternoon the weather was not as sunny as in the morning but as it was dry Richie and I went off to the market.

Finally after two years and nearly two months there I was rolling around on my favourite neighbourhood market, the Ten Cate market.

It was great being there, had good fun rolling over the market, just before we got there we bumped into our dear friend Marianne, who was immensely surprised and pleased to see us.

She had popped round to see me at 14.15 before my physiotherapy session with Mathilde, to bring a present from her trip to Vietnam.

So Marianne had not expected to see me on the Kinkerstraat; it was a pleasure to see how delighted she was to see me there.

Not as delighted as I was to be there after so much time, it was a truly brilliant outing today with my darling Richie.

The first of many trips yet to come to the market and hopefully to other places before too long.

Hopefully one of many more very happy days yet to come.
                                                                                                        
              
                      
























Wednesday, October 06, 2010

A Day Of Two Halves.



Damien Hirst.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Damien_Hirst

Strange weather today, it started with a glimmer of sun, even though it was not the brightest of days it was pleasant.

Richie told me that it was mild weather despite it not looking like it could be; which was good news for going out, sadly it started to rain and then poured down for awhile.

This did not worry me too much as tomorrow is another day, another day means another chance and the weather forecast says it will be mild and dry.

For my brunch I fancied anchovy paste on toast, so Richie whizzed up a tin of anchovies with abit of red paprika, garlic, olive oil and a dash of hot pepper sauce.

Richie also made a delicious lasagne for our dinner tonight which was tasty and wonderfully light yet filling.

Tomorrow Wilma from Wi-Care will be here at 12 noon to measure me for my rain cape, looking forward to her visit very much.  

Wonder what colours she has for me to choose from, hope that I can get a cape made with a fleece lining that can be removed in the summer.

That would be good as it rains a lot here in Amsterdam, so I do need a cape that I can use all year round.

Really excited about the appointment with Wilma, guess that despite being excited I better wait until tomorrow, but it is good fun to speculate about colours and materials today.

This afternoon and evening has been very pleasant, mind you spending time with Richie and the dogs always is lovely.

Despite the pain and needing Richie to regularly reposition me in bed and my feet constantly slipped off the foot rests due to small spasms I felt pretty good and cheerful today

Tuesday October 5, 2010. Up And Downs And Sunshine.

Had a funny day today, mostly felt ok in myself, lots of pain but cheerful, the day started off with my hands hurting and my fingernails sticking into the palms of my hands.

This was helped by Richie rubbing my hands and massaging my upper arms and of course by my doing my daily 30 minutes of arm exercises.

Afterwards I sat up, had my calcium/vitamin B and took my baclofen tablets and drank some lemon & ginger tea.

The day was improved by the weather being pretty nice, no rain and intermittent sunshine which was very good for my mood.

Sadly did not get up as early as I intended to and missed out on going out in this afternoon, not going to spend any time at all reproaching myself.

Instead I shall move on and focus on this evening and thoughts of tomorrow where I will ask Richie to get me up early, so he can get me ready in time to make the most of the day.

Think that getting out tomorrow will be good for me, feel that sometimes I do not push enough to go out, think that this is because of spending so much time in bed.

I do not want to shut myself off from life but notice at times that I tend to shy away from things which I have never done before.

Think this is because of having to make the best of things; have to get out of that way of thinking as I no longer need to do that.

Life in all its beauty is out there waiting for me to rejoin it and I want to do so, do not want to settle for second best and neither will I.

Think it is ok for me to feel sorry sometimes and to let my tears flow but have to watch out that I do not get submerged in self pity.

Do not think I will as I am too aware of the pitfalls and want to enjoy every moment of everyday and I will enjoy every moment.



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Monday, October 04, 2010

Still Optimistic Despite The MS.

 

“Ten Blue Eyes”
New raw art, surrealism, expressionism.
Kazuya Akimoto Art Museum.
Had a pleasant day yesterday even though I was in quite alot of pain, my hands and arms cramping up and locking together woke me up, together with a big spasm.

Funny how I have got used to living with pain, glad it does not stop me being myself and being cheerful and optimistic.

But it does give me a lot to struggle against in order to be able to be myself which is always positive.

Guess it is not too difficult to do because I am very cheerful and optimistic by nature; nothing seems to change that which is brilliant.

Good to see that even this horrible disease that has taken me on such a horrible trip where around every corner there is yet another nasty surprise, has not diminished me.

Being myself is very important for me and now that I am wearing earrings and brooches and necklaces again, I feel even more me.

I enjoy wearing my pretty sparkly things again and getting Richie to spray me with perfume, have to stock up on some new ones soon as I am down to my last two bottles.

The Lolita Lempicka and Jean Paul Gaultier are the ones I still have, my Christian Dior three Poisons perfumes and the Kylie Minogue and Roma by Laura Baggio and the Angel are all finished as is the gorgeous Escada.

I enjoy perfume and my jewellery too much to let MS stop me enjoying them; they are so much part of me now that when I do not wear them it feels very strange.

For the first year in bed I did not wear any jewellery or perfume which contributed to making me quite depressed.

Since end of April this year I have been able to sit intermittently in my wheelchair and started putting on earring and perfume which really helped my mood enormously.

Now I wear them everyday and feel truly me once more and that is good despite the MS.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Enjoying The Sunshine.

 

August Macke.


We were up quite late last night as we watched Later with Jools, really enjoyed some of the acts enormously.

It had been raining all evening and it was still doing so after the program had finished, as Richie had turned the light off I could hear the steady downpour outside.

Had been wondering whether I would fall asleep easily, the last couple of nights I was ready to drift off but each time could not quite do it.

That was because each time my nose got so bunged up that I could not breath through it, this stopped me falling asleep easily.

I always have a handkerchief right in front of me, on top of the duvet with a few drops of eucalyptus on it to help keep me breathing well.

Took ages for it to work, think that is because I have a tendency to open my mouth when I start to relax and drift off, which gives me a problem breathing through my nose.

Difficult to stop myself doing this as stopping myself means being aware which then stops me drifting off to sleep.

Last night somehow I managed to do this without becoming too awake in the process which was really good.

Before I knew it I was asleep and slept very well until I started to slowly wake up, must have slightly moved my arms which resulted in my arms and hands cramping up.

This resulted in both my hands, especially my right hand clenching up into tight fists with my finger nails digging in to the palms of my hand.

Not a nice way to wake, Richie responded right away to my calls for help, he came over and prised my fingers out and rubbed and massaged my hands and arms.

So that they were more relaxed and my fingers could be easily stretched out and I could use them again.

This helped me do my arm exercises after which my hands and arms were not as painful anymore as they had been when I woke.

Feels good and has helped me to write and publish this post and to enjoy the sunshine and the day today.







Saturday, October 02, 2010

Enjoying Today.



Rene Magritte.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ren%C3%A9_Magritte

Been doing very well not actively worrying about Spike and what the blood test will tell us on Monday afternoon.

Feel pretty pleased with myself for being able to not let worrying dominate my life and ruin the weekend.

Not always easy to not worry, think that is one of the most difficult things to do, but one of the best things for me to do.

Makes life so much easier and better than if I were totally frazzled now by going over the top with worrying about every possible permutation of what could possibly happen next.

MS has certainly showed me that worrying and second guessing the future is not a good idea.

It just adds to my stress which is the last thing that I need, I need as little preferably no stress at all in my life.

The MS is already more than enough without me making it so much more worse by worrying, if I start to worry it is difficult to stop.

Difficult not to consider all aspects and before I know it I am very upset, have learned now that when I catch myself doing this I just say stop now to myself
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And I do stop right away; it has made my life much pleasanter being able to stop myself getting upset about things that have yet to happen.

For me being right here right now and not worrying about the future is the best option for me and the one I like the best.

Like the fact that instead of using my energy negatively I can use it to be positive, just then the sun has started to shine going to post his and enjoy today.

Friday, October 01, 2010

No Point In Worrying Before The Event


Nice sunny day today especially lovely especially after the horribly dreary dark miserable day yesterday.

Sadly did not go out as Richie had to take Spike and Marleen to the vet for their yearly injections.

We were both tense about the appointment as Richie was going to discuss Spike with           the vet.

His back legs have become increasingly wonk these last two weeks, up to then some days they were and others not.

The vet recognised Spike’s symptoms right away and wants Richie to go back on Monday when he will take a blood sample and send it to the lab.

It could be one of two things which can be treated with medicine, which will not cure the problem but will ease the symptoms.

The treatment will give him three to four good years, which would be excellent for us all especially for Spike.

Felt so worried while Richie and the dogs were at the vets imagining all sorts of things, it was a relief to hear Richie’s report.

Now we have to wait until Monday and the blood test, hope the vet’s theory is correct and it is one of the two treatable things.

Going to try and put it out of my mind until after the weekend, no point in worrying before the event.

Today is Friday and I am going to enjoy this evening and the weekend, live in this moment not the ones to come.   
      



Nice sunny day today especially lovely especially after the horribly dreary dark miserable day yesterday.

Sadly did not go out as Richie had to take Spike and Marleen to the vet for their yearly injections.

We were both tense about the appointment as Richie was going to discuss Spike with           the vet.

His back legs have become increasingly wonk these last two weeks, up to then some days they were and others not.

The vet recognised Spike’s symptoms right away and wants Richie to go back on Monday when he will take a blood sample and send it to the lab.

It could be one of two things which can be treated with medicine, which will not cure the problem but will ease the symptoms.

The treatment will give him three to four good years, which would be excellent for us all especially for Spike.

Felt so worried while Richie and the dogs were at the vets imagining all sorts of things, it was a relief to hear Richie’s report.

Now we have to wait until Monday and the blood test, hope the vet’s theory is correct and it is one of the two treatable things.

Going to try and put it out of my mind until after the weekend, no point in worrying before the event.

Today is Friday and I am going to enjoy this evening and the weekend, live in this moment not the ones to come.   
      




Thursday, September 30, 2010

A Good Friend And Neighbour.

 
 
Today is a totally different day to how the weather was yesterday when the sky was blue and it was warm and sunny.

When I woke this morning it was a dismal and grey rainy day, an incredible contrast to what it had been like yesterday.

Sadly did not get outside yesterday as our ex neighbour Willes came by to visit us, was very good to see her again.

Even though we did not visit each other daily, we knew she was around, always abit of a buzz around Willes.

Miss her being in the building, the other neighbours are just not like her, it has been such a pleasure being neighbours for the last three years.

First really good neighbour since I lived in England, what I like about Willes is that she is very direct, very open and honest
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What you see is what you get, she is not a prejudiced woman, on the contrary, she treats everyone exactly the same.

Great to have someone like her around, good to get to know her, yesterday we gave her a little present to let her know how much we appreciate her.

Nice to let friends know that they are appreciated and a very good thing to do especially yesterday with Willes.

She has been an outstanding neighbour and is a good friend.


Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Shocking Stem Cell Therapy Story.

There is a terrible story in the news today in England, about a doctor who was exploiting MS patients with promises of a cure by undergoing expensive stem cell treatment.

Shocking to hear this story and only confirms for me yet again that there are too many who seek to exploit vulnerable people with degenerative diseases like MS.

Having MS which has no cure and where only disease modifying drugs are available makes us all very open to exploitation by unscrupulous people.

Who want to make a profit at the expense of exploiting people’s fears and desires to find a cure for their MS.

We are all vulnerable to people like that with promises of cures and who would not want to be cured of MS.

I know that I would love nothing more than being cure of my Primary Progressive MS, would love to be able to move my body again.

To go for a walk with my darling Richie and go once again to visit all our favourite places in the city.

Would be wonderful to be able to walk, to go to the toilet and shower independently, to do all the things that I took for granted until I could no longer do them.

As I have found out once my MS progressed so fast there was barely time to register what was happening before something else happened.

After my diagnosis in 2006 I went online to find information about MS and also found many offers of cures, which I knew were not based in reality.

They all seemed to be about tapping in to the fears and exploiting the vulnerabilities of people with an incurable disease like MS.

That is why the story about the unscrupulous doctor was so shocking to hear about on the radio today.

The idea that a doctor should be exploiting people in this way is very worrying and has really shocked me tremendously.

From BBC Website 29 September

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-11425435


http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/programmes/newsnight/9040456.stm

Stem cell doctor Robert Trossel struck off by GMC



Dr Robert Trossel had consulting rooms in London and Rotterdam

A doctor who offered unlicensed stem cell treatments to patients with MS has been struck off by the General Medical Council.

Dr Robert Trossel treated several men and women, who paid around £10,000.

The GMC found that the doctor, who trained in the Netherlands, had breached good medical practice by "exploiting vulnerable patients".

Dr Trossel, 56, who worked in London and Rotterdam, conceded he had been "too enthusiastic" about the treatment.

At an earlier hearing, the GMC Fitness to Practise panel said that Dr Trossel had exaggerated the benefits of treatment based on "anecdotal and aspirational information".

 His patients, who had an aggressive and disabling type of multiple sclerosis, paid up to £10,000 or more for stem cell injections, with some raising the money through charity events.

However, the stem cells offered were not intended for human use, only for laboratory research.

Tom Kark QC, for the GMC, spoke of the patients' "anger and sense of being let down".

"They were all vulnerable patients who already found themselves failed by the medical profession in this country and as a result were searching, some with desperation, for a cure or relief elsewhere, which is why and how they ended up in Dr Trossel's hands," Mr Kark told the GMC.

"They were given false hope by him and the experience not only cost them financially but for the most part it caused them personal and emotional loss when they realised that the treatment provided to them was not only expensive but pointless."

The treatment also contained bovine brain and spinal cord, and the GMC panel ruled he had abused his position as a doctor by failing to warn patients about potential risks of vCJD.

The doctor's own lawyer had told the hearing how patients were informed about the experimental nature of the injections, and that he had stopped using them when the nature of the stem cells became clear following a BBC Newsnight investigation.

He said that the doctor was "compassionate", and had not acted dishonestly.

Despite Dr Trossel's apparent "change of heart", panel chairman Professor Brian Gomes da Costa said he had shown "little insight" into the seriousness of what he had done, and how it might have affected his patients.

Patient fears

The GMC heard that the patients involved had yet to be refunded the thousands of pounds they paid for their treatment.

Karen Galley, 45, from Essex, visited Dr Trossel's clinic in August 2006, and was charged around £10,500 for the treatment, receiving one injection in the arm and six in the neck.

‘’ It makes me feel sick that somebody could exploit vulnerable people in this way”

 Karen Galley Patient of Dr Trossel

Friends and colleagues of Ms Galley had helped her raise the money, with one running a mini-marathon and another undertaking a sponsored diet.

She said she was "angry and scared" after finding out that the injections contained bovine spinal tissue.

"His QC has described him as a compassionate doctor - but that is rubbish, no compassionate person treats people like that."

She said that she now lived in fear of diseases such as vCJD, for which there is no test or treatment.

She said: "It makes me feel sick that somebody could exploit vulnerable people in this way."

Another MS patient, accountant Malcolm Pear, from Bromsgrove in Worcestershire, visited the Rotterdam clinic in January 2006.

After paying £8,000, the treatment was delivered in a "coffee lounge" rather than a private treatment room.

"I suppose alarm bells should have started ringing then," said his wife Lesley.

She said they were led to believe that the treatment was composed simply of umbilical cells, but found out later that bovine tissue was involved.

After a fleeting improvement, Mr Pear's condition has now deteriorated significantly.

Mrs Pear said: "When you are sitting in front of a neurologist who is saying 'look, there is nothing you can do', you clutch at straws."

"I am not saying we are the most intelligent people on God's Earth, but we certainly are not completely stupid."

After the verdict, Dr Trossel said he was "disappointed".

He added: "I would like to take the opportunity to say how sorry I am for any distress caused to my patients during this time.

"During my career as a doctor, I have always practised with the objective of achieving the very best for my patients."

‘’ You have exploited vulnerable patients and their families...Your conduct has unquestionably done lasting harm, if not physically, then mentally and financially, to these patients and also to their families and supporters. ‘’

Brian Gomes da Costa of the General Medical Council


http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/crime/ms-treatments-doctor-should-be-struck-off-2090928.html

http://news.uk.msn.com/articles.aspx?cp-documentid=154802839

http://www.birminghampost.net/news/west-midlands-news/2010/09/29/stem-cell-treatment-doctor-struck-off-by-gmc-65233-27368125/

http://www.guardian.co.uk/society/2010/sep/10/doctor-exploited-patients-stem-cell

http://www.hospitaldr.co.uk/blogs/web-news/stem-cell-doctor-struck-off-by-gmc

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

We Inspire Each Other.


Paul Gauguin.

Really enjoyed writing my post yesterday, good choosing the blogs that I wanted to give the You Inspire Me Award from Kris @ Behold the Metatron.

It was a lot of work made lighter because I enjoyed doing it so very much, good to let others know that they inspire me.

Important for me to let other bloggers know that they help to make my life better and easier because of their inspiration and support.
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When I went to publish yesterdays post I made a happy discovery that all the links were made active without my having to do anything apart from click on the compose option.

That was a brilliant discovery especially as there were 50 links to be made active, so quite a  relief to find it would not take ages just a couple of clicks.

Nice to feel happy with Blogger instead of annoyed because of yet another glitch, as there are so often.

Today I am still enjoying choosing the blogs to pass on Kris’s fine award to yesterday, if I could have I would have given it to all the blogs I visit and read.

Hope that no one thinks that they are not inspirational because they were not on the post yesterday.

Yesterday I choose a cross section of all the blogs that I visit and enjoy reading again and again, good to know and experience that we all support and inspire each other.  










Monday, September 27, 2010

You Inspire Me Award.



Award From Kris @ Behold The Metatron.


Was pleasantly surprised and delighted the other day by getting the You Inspire Me Award from Kris @ Behold The Metatron.

Lovely of her to think of me, I am very touched to be given this award by Kris, inspiring each other is very important I believe for us all.

Will very much enjoy passing this award on to some of the blogs that inspire me, would like to pass it on to all the blogs that I read as they all inspire me.

Sadly I will not be able to do that as my index fingers are not functioning so well due to the weather changes here.

Having to choose some does not detract from the fact that I think they are all good blogs, that all inspire me and I hope many others too.

I shall enjoy choosing the blogs to give the You Inspire Me Award from Kris @ Behold The Metatron and hope they too will enjoy passing the award on.

Here are some of the blogs that inspire me:

Stephany @ soulful sepulcher

I am on a journey. on a journey. Take a walk with me. Life is short. So stand tall.
"Always go too far, because that's where you'll find the truth."~Camus

Ana @ Hella Heaven

" To see what is in front of one's nose requires a constant struggle." George Orwell

S.S-O @ Multiple Sclerosis & Me

MS: Multiple Sclerosis, My Story... I am a Trinidadian; I will use lots of Trini slang/words and will explain as I go but lime=hang out; i will use that a helluva lot!
Karen @  Meandering........One Moment Please.
My Random Musings, Thoughts And Observations As I Meander Along Life’s Many Paths.

Muff @ Kaleidoscope Muff

A journey through the various stages of my MS.

http://kaleidoscopemuff.blogspot.com/


JC @ Lilacs And Cats
Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain ... author unknown


Dianne @ A Stellarlife

Living a life with Multiple Sclerosis and all the rest. This blog will include my views on current events, disability issues, entertainment and silliness, politics, health issues, and I am sure to offend some; but the celebration of diversity is my main goal.

Judy @ Peace Be With You

On the MS Journey
About My Poems
Haiku poems in triptych allow me to distill the MS experience into very few words. While these poems have journal-like qualities, they are not my daily journal. They merely represent what I or someone I know will have experienced on the MS journey. That said,
My poems will span
the emotional spectrum.
That is what I live.

A smile may lift me
past my MS challenges.
I share that with you.

Sometimes sadness trumps
easy laughter and resolve.
I will write then too.

Andy @ Jughead's Baltimore Blog, Our Life With Multiple Sclerosis

These are the things that make me scratch my head and say "Whaaaaaa"?

Mary @ Travelogue for the Universe

A rambling train of thoughts about the universe and our micro solar system consisting of our dear Sun and other planets in a magnetic dance while we hurtle through space on the face of a rock and stare at flat screens where we attempt to connect while we detach.

Rei @ NecROSEphelia

An endless symphony of blasphemy

Sherry @ Word Salads or the Demyelination of Me

Living single with multiple sclerosis and the loss of a child
Janis @ just breathe janis
Gerry @ Broken Dreams

Crazy Cris @ Here and There and Everywhere

Odds and Ends, Random Thoughts, Funny Observations, picked up from Here and There and Everywhere.

Kimberly @ My Journey with Multiple Sclerosis

Every journey starts with a single step. My journey started "officially" in March 2006. Now, four years into my journey, I often find myself amazed at how this disease taught me a lot....about me. I find the hot air balloons a perfect representation of my journey, with all it's ups and downs....I still soar.
Marie @ Nourish: Living, Laughing Whining

Webster @ halt stop forget relax

Living a life with MS. This is a place where I say what I want; I can criticize, be rude, and fart out loud if I need to. I can and will get pissed at my MS, but prefer to work along with him. Usually I am well-mannered and gracious and behave myself. So do come in and ride along with me.

Chekoala @ ... .... Wobbly teetering blogging

... ... ... ... things you don't notice are much better to have working ... ... until the shoe is not on the other foot
Hilary @ The Smitten Image
For The Thousands Of Words Pictures Are Worth

Linda @ Occasional Scotland

Scottish life and landscape in photos, from Edinburgh to Shetland and points between
Justyna @ Love Lives In The Kitchen

Nancy @ LIFE IN THE SECOND HALF

WHERE AN EMPTY NEST MEANS ENDLESS OPPORTUNITIES!

Stan @ Is Something Not Quite Right With Stan - A Mental Health Blog

Chessie @ Chessie's Tales, Motorcycles and Ride

Marc @ Wheelchair Kamikaze

The Rants, Ruminations, and Reflections of a Mad MS Patient

Libby @ thoughts...usually with attitude...

Carole @ Carole's MS blog

The MS Roller Coaster. A ride that never ends.
Tessa @ Aerial Armadillo
FROM A LIFE...A COLLECTION OF IMAGES IN PROSE, PAINT AND PHOTOGRAPHS.
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out and yelling joyously ....
"WOOO HOOO what a ride!"
Darlene @ Rustic Ranch

Chloe @ Chloe is...

Running with a bottle of wine.
Donna @ Arranging Shoes…….Thoughts From AWonky Walk Girl

Maryann @ azoyizes and MS

I was diagnosed with MS in my late 30's, but was having symptoms in my early 20's. The past six years, I've slowly gotten worse. Then, I began Tysabri. I call it my miracle drug. After three infusions, my balance and leg strength had improved to where I was able to take walks with my husband and my dog. My diagnosis has been changed to SPMS.

Mitch @ Enjoying the Ride

I have Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis and sit in an iBOT wheelchair all day. So why do I lead such a contented life?

Kelli @ GUMBO

A little bit of this and a little bit of that. Family, friends, daily challenges, living with chronic illness and disability and more....

Juli @ Tales From the MS Front

assorted rants and maybe some silly things about having MS

Amelia @ Tales of Life with Multiple Sclerosis

In 2002 I got the earth shattering news that I could possibly have Multiple Sclerosis. In 2003 that news was confirmed. I was 29 years old. I wanted to start this blog to go over the last few years of dealing with this illness and look forward to the future as it happens. If I can give hope to just one person, that life isn't over when you get life changing news, then this will have been worthwhile!

Cranky @ Musings of a Cranky Caregiver

A Blog About the Random Stuff that Floats Through My Brain

Tara @ Living Day to Day with Multiple Sclerosis

iving with Multiple Sclerosis is a daily battle. MS is the invisible disease or at least for most people. We fight many emotional and physical symptoms all the time. We need as much support as we can get. However due to the invisible symptoms we tend to not get a lot of support and that brings on more emotional stress which in return brings on more MS symptoms. A Vicious cycle.

Gina Castle @ Gina Castle: Traditional Batik on Silk

Welcome to my gallery! Batik is an ancient Javanese art form of design on fabric. It is a process of applying hot wax on cloth then dyeing it. To "add" color, the process is repeated several times. Each piece is individual.

Mort @ Caring And Sharing
Marit @ Marit Chrislock-Lauterbach


Cathy @ Dare To Think
A haven for dreams, ideas, rest.
Blinders Off @ Living-With-MS
Living with multiple sclerosis is like a box of chocolate. You never know how it will affect you the next minute, hour, or day. I refuse to let MS control my life...what about YOU.
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Sunday, September 26, 2010

Beautiful Sun For A Few Minutes

Cold grey day today with just now the first and seems last hint of sunshine for today, would not be surprised if it starts to rain soon now.

This morning Richie even put the heating on briefly as it had got quite cold in the bedroom with the window open all night.

I like the window open at night think I sleep better with good ventilation rather than if the room get warm and stuffy because there is no air circulation.

Last night got quite concerned as my mail was not working kept getting error messages, so long since I worked on a Computer Helpdesk I forgot the error codes.

Luckily I could ask Steve what it meant:

The connection to the server has failed. Account: 'pop.online.nl (1)', Server: 'pop.online.nl', Protocol: POP3, Port: 110, Secure(SSL): No, Socket Error: 10013, Error Number: 0x800CCC0E

And he told me that the email server was down which was a relief as I had not changed anything.

This also explained why I could not access my webmail and then found out Richie had the same problem.

Today all is fine again, mail has come in and I have sent mail which is good, felt quite cut off yesterday as if I would never receive or send mail ever again.

Realise again how much I do rely on my e-mail hate to think of my life without but sure that I would manage somehow, sure we would all find good alternate ways of communicating.

Think that Face Book and Hotmail and Gmail would get used lots more; see plenty enough other ways to communicate if my provider’s server does not work
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The sun has come out and in the background there is a very dark bank of rain clouds which will happen soon.

Glad I got to see the beautiful sun even if only for a few minutes today.