Last night seemed so relaxed but no matter how much I tried sleep eluded me for hours.
When at 5.15 I still could not sleep Richie gave me a lorazepam and that seemed to do the trick and I slept until about 12.30 when I was awake again.
I do feel that I have taken a pill; it makes me feel slightly weary of everything which is not how I usually feel or how I like to feel.
It is a sort of seedy feeling as if you have rented out your body and are not sure the temporary tenants did not trespass where they should not have.
Think opiates always give you that feeling, the feeling of being lived by proxy that is why I do not usually like to use these pills.
It was just did not want to go totally without sleep especially as I want to be relaxed for the big appointment tomorrow.
So may take one of those lorazepam tonight but then right away and not when the night is near over like this morning.
No wonder I feel so seedy today, as I did not sleep for the full time that I could have slept.
The day has been bright and sunny, the blue sky is now get ting cloudier as the afternoon comes to an end here, and it is 16.35 here.
This is why I hate the time being changed as we can never fully appreciate these fine autumn afternoons and evenings.
This is end of the afternoon, the blue tits have been stocking up on peanuts, so have the parakeets, today eating and not squabbling with each other.
Have to get Richie to top up the nuts soon so as to keep the birds well fed; they do need it now there are fewer insects.
Love to see the birds at the bird feeder, realise more these days how much I still miss the beautiful wildlife in Trinidad.
Had not realised that there were over 30 species of lizards in Trinidad and as many types of frogs.
Also an amazing amount of birds a real treasure chest of wildlife, thankfully they realised what a little gold mine they were sitting on so the wild life in Trinidad is being protected now.
Sadly not in time to save the ocelot, there are no wild ocelots roaming free in Trinidad but it is the place to visit if one is a wild life enthusiast.
Here is a link to the Asa Wright Nature Centre
http://www.asawright.org/
Here is a link to the wiki Natural History of Trinidad and Tobago
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Natural_history_of_Trinidad_and_Tobago
