Monday, September 29, 2008

Still in bed been in bed since 21 August.

Think I am doing very well keeping calm and making the best of it.

Difficult to do but not when you look at the alternative.

Not my kind of alternative.

Do not want to waste what I have.

It's clear from the way my body been steadily declining that my decision to make the best of it is the right decision for me.

Daily OM

You may jump to conclusions today when interacting with others, especially if you are assessing your exchanges from an emotional or biased point of view.

Perhaps you are feeling suspicious of other people's motives or are making assumptions about how you're being received.

If this is the case for you today, it may be because your mind is busy referencing the past and compelling you to get stuck in projections.

Consider focusing your attention on the present moment instead.

Paying attention to what's really happening, rather than getting mired in mind chatter, can help you to think clearly and rationally so you can form appropriate conclusions.

Staying present allows us to process information rationally during our interactions with people.

Being in the moment frees us of the mind's tendency to dip into the past or jump ahead into an unknown future.

We can listen attentively and take what we see and hear for what it is in its own context.

The objectivity this affords us allows us to come to more pertinent conclusions.

We can also respond to what's in front of us rather than react from past experiences, our fears, or conditioning.

Stay present and absorb what is happening to you right now, and you will be able to honestly assess your situation and draw more accurate conclusions.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Great weekend with a good friend

This weekend with Angela was brilliant, the best.

Good to see a good friend and spend time together like we did this weekend.

Especially like that we are on the same wavelength and can be ourselves.

Also real good is the way it does not seem to matter how much time has passed between the last time we saw each other.

It always feels like we just saw each other the week before instead of four years ago, like it was this time.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Yippee a good friend is visiting this weekend.

Yippee a good friend is visiting this weekend.

We met 17 years ago at Hillcroft College, Surbiton, London.

She is a good friend I am very happy to see her tomorrow.

Pretty excited about her visit.

Roll on tomorrow!!!!!

How do they do it??????

Always used to be amazed at how people managed to keep going under what seemed to be dreadfully difficult circumstances,

How do they do it I often thought then.

And now I know the how and why.

How they and you and I do it is we just keep going no science involved.

And why because there is no other option.

You find out that what you have is precious.

And the less it is the more value it has.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Life with MS is .................

Everyone wants me to get better but I won't sadly.

I will only get worse.

This is a degenerative disease.

I was fortunate to not know that I had it for quite a few years.

Have adjusted to a life that is dramatically different from my/our life before.

Now I can do nothing for myself, can't even move my toes anymore.

Can only move my arms and type with one finger.

Richie does everything, gets me out of bed with a hoist.

Showers, dresses and helps me with everything.

Now he dresses the pressure sore which has me confined to bed until it heals.

Been in bed for 3 weeks now and have another month to go.

But I will not give up on my life and our life together.

Richie is brilliant looks after me with such love.

Despite this horror that has come into our happy life and turned it all upside down

we are still happy together.

DiffĂ­cult for us both, Richie works hard and has to cope with seeing me get worse.

Plus the frustration of not being able to do anything to change things.

Also difficult for me, alot of pain all the time and being so dependant for


I make the best of everything and I still have the best.

My beautiful darling Richie who I love so very much.

And who adores me.

He fills my life with love.

And I love him back and let him know how much everyday.

So you see its horrible but we have our great love.

And we certainly make the best of everything.

Monday, September 08, 2008

My darling Richie looks after me brilliantly.

Have been in bed for three weeks now have lost track of time.

Had to look at the calender on my phone to see the date when the wound nurse told me had to stay in bed.

That was 21st of August.

Seems light years away but is only three weeks ago.

Have been told that I need to stay in bed for another month.

Would have gone mad without Richie looking after me so well and with so much love.

He is my darling and makes my life so good.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Wednesday, September 03, 2008


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