Not being able to lift or move my right arm, last night, after not having any problems yesterday, was a huge shock.
It was a surprise which I didn’t need right now, when I could feel again, how important my arm exercises are for me.
Tried to see if I could somehow still be able to do exercises, once my arms can’t move, that was my immediate thought.
I wondered if Richie could rig up a pulley, over the bed that would make it possible for my arm muscles to get stretched.
After a short time I had to admit that there was nothing I would be able to do, not without a motor or Richie’s help.
Feeling my arm lying woodenly and unmoving next to me was unnerving, it scared me a lot; I had been hoping to keep my arms active.
My right arm not being to move at all, was horrible, I had hoped that my arms would still be functioning next year.
Last night’s nasty shock, rattled me, for awhile my optimism was gone, and I did not want to go on, with this unequal struggle
That lasted for only a few minutes before I bounced back, determined not to waste any time fighting MS which I can not win.
Instead I intend to enjoy my life with my darling Richie and savour every precious moment that I can.