Life is getting harder, but still it's my life.

hello dear People,

hope you are well?

had a pleasant christmas with my darling Richie, I do love him so very much and he loves me.

and now he does everything for me.

he needs alot of support now, we both do and we could not do it without our friends

I am so worried for him as this is such a horrible situation to watch your partner lose mobility and become totally disabled so quickly.

a year ago I could still stand up, could wash and dress myself, put my earings in and turn pages and write and roll great joints and now I can't do any of that.

now typing is a struggle which I do with one fingernail or a knuckle and eating is a struggle, so is just sitting upright in my wheelchair.

I still laugh alot and enjoy all I can but it's hard and getting harder, feel now I need to go out as much as possible as I feel now that I won't be able to sit up for very much longer.

sounds abit dramatic but just noticing my bodies decline and being realistic., but no way am I giving up as I am still totally alive and full of it.

just sometimes it all overflows and I cry as much as I laugh.

its bloody hard especially not being able to sleep together, we miss the closeness.

I miss snuggling up to my darling. but since april I have to sleep in a hospital bed and you only get a single bed apparently cripples do not need intimacy!

bloody hell we both need it more than ever but thats how it is when you need the states help, you only get the cheapest equipment.

seems its always the cost that is important not the quality of life. shame as right now I/we could do with alot of quality of life.

seems we will have to make the best of it which we do.

well thats all I can manage tonight.

take care of yourselves.

and enjoy your life now!

thanks for your love and support.

best wishes for 2008.

love,
Herrad

I got lucky!!

Yippee next monday at 13.00 the new lift will be delivered!!!!!!

Really amazing to get a piece of equipment that works.

That means that almost seven months of pain is nearly over.

Fingers crossed!

Thanks Merelyme for your comment that my blogging was missed. I missed it too and additionally missed the supportive comments and friendship of you and the other lovely people who have taken the time to read and comment.

Been feeling very down lately guess also to do with the cold wet windy weather and the dark nights which start too early. Can't wait for the evenings to get lighter!

Meanwhile there's Christmas and New Year to enjoy. And who knows I could get lucky and get an early present and get my lift soon.