Stay Being Myself.

Enrique Tabara.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enrique_T%C3%A1bara

Had literal a crappy day, luckily no accident in bed, apart from feeling warm I did not have any stomach cramps or any warning.

Guess I should have realised I needed the toilet when I continuously could not maintain my position, except for a mere minute or two.

I hate having to always be asking Richie to adjust me, but that is my reality these days, I got Richie annoyed when he found out that I was trying not to call him too much.

Richie wants me to call him right away, rather than trying to cope with typing half lying on my side.

I agree it’s better to be corrected right away for both of us, it is nicer for me not to lean over to the left, putting huge strain on my back as well as side.

Need to ask for help when I need it, better that I don’t try to be brave, when it’s actually the opposite, its foolhardy as making do is not good for me.

Too painful for me not t ocall help, really hoping that Aquarius will have a solution soon for me, I need one pretty quick too.

Tonight I am quite tired after all my discomfort, glad despite it all I still managed to keep reasonably ok, though I m sure all the stress I was feeling probably me irritable.

I hate getting like that, not how I want to be, not easy to keep sweet tempered, not when feeling so much non stop pain, discomfort, all I can do is try to stay being myself, which is optimistic.

A Good Day.

La Cene,1950.
Gaston Chaissc.
France 1910-1964

Feeling happier today, not been made so aware of my mortality, as I have been alot lately, morbid thoughts that I don’t like.

Ones, that I have been having too often, since my right arm has become so much weaker, which has worried me so very much wondering how things will be.

 Richie will manage, that helps some but does not take away my worries, I cope by trying to stop my thoughts, shame they keep popping back up.

Luckily I had a break today, nice to not be bothered even if only for one day, this afternoon cheered me up, Richie trimmed my toe, fingernails as well as cutting my hair.

 Now I feel restored, I always do after a haircut and getting my nails done too was brilliant, then I got called by Maurits, to tell me he had made an appointment on 28 October

It’s with a company who make various types of support, I found the company, Aquarius, yesterday when I surfed the web, and I hope it’s a good appointment.

Then Marianne came round with some clothes she had altered for me, she also took some more with her, brilliant thanks to her and Anja I now have more clothes to choose from.

My favourite little black jacket Richie slipped on right away for me, the first time I have been able to wear it in years nice for Marianne to see how simple it was for Richie to put on me.

I looked, felt so much better, having my clothes adapted has given me a huge much needed boost, I can once again look how I want, like myself.