7 march 2007
Early March, love this time of year,
The afternoons are longer, but only just.
Its still dark and wet but spring could be round the corner.
This time its hard watching all those signs of promise.
Knowing that for me it does not feel the same.
Not the same as last year. Last year when I did not know.
Did not know I was chronically ill. Thought then I was recovering from a bad knee.
Then I thought with perseverance and a lot of willpower I would get better.
Sadly last years birthday present to me was the first clear signs of ms.
No wonder I am fearful about my birthday this year.
What will be my surprise present this time?