Having A Relaxed Day.

Roberto Matta.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roberto_Matta 

We taking it very easy today, in order to regain our equilibrium which was disrupted at the beginning of the week by the catheter disaster.

First of all the nasty surprise on Monday morning, when the pain of not been able to urinate was difficult to cope with.

As soon as Richie knew it was not possible to insert a new catheter in the stoma, he did the next best thing and inserted a catheter into my uretha.

The relief for me was instant, which was wonderful as I had been getting extremely desperate.

The next day at the hospital was a dreadful ordeal to have to go through, but luckily the doctors were successful after 1 1/2 hours.

Which was excellent as I don't need another operation, something I wasn't looking forward to having done, so it isn't necessary.

Really pleased that we've been taking it easy we have really needed some quiet time like we had during the day today.

I'm so happy to have Richie look after me, something he does so well, and with such tender kindness and loving care, he is my absolute Darling.

Taking It Out Of Me.

Roberto Matta.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roberto_Matta 

The last couple of days have really taken it out of me, especially yesterday at the hospital.

It was pretty awful lying there, with three doctors and two nurses trying to insert a new catheter into my bladder.

It was very painful, although not as painful as it could have been, but luckily I don't feel quite as much because of my paralysis.

What I did feel was not pleasant, what helps me enormously is being able to distance myself from what is happening.

I'm glad I'm able to shut myself off from what is going on when I don't like what is happening.

This piece is going to be no longer than this because I'm still pretty tired after yesterday's visit to the hospital.

Tomorrow is another day, when I hope to be feeling better, I shall place this on my blog together with another excellent piece of artwork by Roberto Matta.

New catheter.

Slept well again last night despite the doctor's appointment today, our GP is coming round to change the catheter at 12.30.

As soon as I woke up this morning I was moaning with pain which Richie remedied with a bag of THC and that helped me off to dreamland again.

Sadly could not get the doctor’s visit out of my head and had to finally acknowledge that it worries me.

And yet it is not worrying Dr. van Wijngaarden is a very good doctor who knows what she is doing and does it well.

It is not a painful procedure and yet it is not me favourite thing, would love to phone and cancel arrange another date but that would only postpone it to another date.

Then I would get to fret and worry and even panic slightly all over again.

No won't do that just have to let it happen and once it is done I won't have to think about it for another two months.

Instead of concentrating on the doctor’s visit I will think about my dear friend Anja who will be visiting this afternoon which is a nicer prospect than the doctor.

12.30 the doctor was here and before I knew it she had installed the new catheter and it was all done and dusted, what a relief!

The sun is shining brightly and Richie tells me the weather is mild so will be able to open the windows in a minute and enjoy the balmy air wafting in through the windows