Showing posts with label painful fingers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label painful fingers. Show all posts

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Enjoying The Sunshine.

 

August Macke.


We were up quite late last night as we watched Later with Jools, really enjoyed some of the acts enormously.

It had been raining all evening and it was still doing so after the program had finished, as Richie had turned the light off I could hear the steady downpour outside.

Had been wondering whether I would fall asleep easily, the last couple of nights I was ready to drift off but each time could not quite do it.

That was because each time my nose got so bunged up that I could not breath through it, this stopped me falling asleep easily.

I always have a handkerchief right in front of me, on top of the duvet with a few drops of eucalyptus on it to help keep me breathing well.

Took ages for it to work, think that is because I have a tendency to open my mouth when I start to relax and drift off, which gives me a problem breathing through my nose.

Difficult to stop myself doing this as stopping myself means being aware which then stops me drifting off to sleep.

Last night somehow I managed to do this without becoming too awake in the process which was really good.

Before I knew it I was asleep and slept very well until I started to slowly wake up, must have slightly moved my arms which resulted in my arms and hands cramping up.

This resulted in both my hands, especially my right hand clenching up into tight fists with my finger nails digging in to the palms of my hand.

Not a nice way to wake, Richie responded right away to my calls for help, he came over and prised my fingers out and rubbed and massaged my hands and arms.

So that they were more relaxed and my fingers could be easily stretched out and I could use them again.

This helped me do my arm exercises after which my hands and arms were not as painful anymore as they had been when I woke.

Feels good and has helped me to write and publish this post and to enjoy the sunshine and the day today.







Tuesday, December 29, 2009

The Future is Still in the Future, The Present is Here Now.










Peter Blake

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peter_Blake_%28artist%29

Yesterday my hands would not cooperate and I had big problems clicking the mouse, suddenly could not do anything, which was a horrible.

My right hand is getting worse; the fingers just would not hold the mouse so that I could use my index finger.

The index finger was curled up and would not straighten and could not click on anything even when I tried as slowly as possible.

It took me up to 5 minutes to click on something and then had to steer the mouse with one hand and click with the other hand.

All very frustrating and scary, really freaked me out to see and experience what the future may hold for me.

Been reminding myself to stay in the moment and not get too ahead of myself, the future maybe like that but it may not.

Not much point starting to live it now, better to leave it alone until it does happen and then deal with it.

The thought that I will not be able to use my laptop and communicate is almost too dreadful for me to contemplate.

The laptop and the internet have kept me going since last year, and finding so many wonderful people via the blog world has been a huge boost for me and one that I do not want to do without.

So I am not going to dwell on it, this did not really work for me last night as I lay a wake for hours, before finally sleeping at about 5 am.

It was an unpleasant wake up call yesterday; it felt like I was slapped round the face with the evidence of my hands not functioning well.

Got very upset while Richie was in the park, shocked myself by saying that I did not want to live like this and burst into tears.

This was when I realised that I did very much want to live and saying that I wanted to die made me cry lots.

Was sobbing that I wanted to live for as long as possible.

Was very glad to see Richie home from the park with the dogs and I could ask for his help in opening mails and getting the online newspapers and a radio station for me.

Later in the bathroom while Richie was showering me he told me how much he loved me and said that as long as I was with him everything was alright.

This really got to me, especially as I had been thinking of not being able to be here with him for too much longer and I started to cry and we cuddled.

Later when I was back in front of my laptop my fingers were cooperating again and I did not feel so desperate anymore.

Writing this has made me cry again, am quite damp around my face and throat, I am going to dry my face and post this after I have found some pictures.

Then I am going to take it easy and enjoy this splendid misty grey afternoon now that the faint glimmer of sun has departed.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

A Wet Sunday in December











Pop Art.

Yet another grey and extremely rainy day, so rainy the dogs do not seem keen to be outside today.

Slept without problems last night which was very pleasant indeed, had been concerned that it would not happen and I would have to wake up my darling Richie for THC.

I did ask him for some THC when I woke up too early this morning, luckily I slept again as soon as I had inhaled the vapour.

Don’t the weekends go quick one minute it is Friday and then before you know it Sunday is here again,

Had not expected it to go nearly as quick as when I was still working, when Monday always seemed to come round at top speed.

Weekends seemed to last for minutes compared to the days at work, guess going in earlier than I had to must have made it a longer week.

Always thought it was good to be in early, so I could get everything organised for 8 .30 when colleagues would be needing the Service Desk.

Enjoyed my job, liked supporting my colleagues and organising cars, laptops, mobiles, conference rooms, lunches and other things they needed organising for them.





Yesterday I got an unexpected award from Jo@ Diary Of A Sad Housewife.

http://diaryofasadhousewife-jo.blogspot.com/

I would like to pass this on to everyone who reads this blog and hope to see it on lots of blogs.

Let us make the circle of friends a big one; I would like to spread the love to all who visit my blog.

Could you please visit the following blogs and leave a supportive message:

http://musingsofacrankycaregiver.blogspot.com/http://screamingrichie.blogspot.com/

http://spinfortunaswheel.blogspot.com/

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http://talesoflifewithmultiplesclerosis.blogspot.com/

http://www.arrangingshoes.com/

http://kaleidoscopemuff.blogspot.com/

http://bipolarsoupkitchen-stephany.blogspot.com/

http://a-journey-of-another-kind.blogspot.com/

It is very dark now; the rain seemed to have stopped briefly, so Richie and the dogs have gone to the park.

That is good for them, now we will have happy, relaxed dogs which is how we like them, perfect, and there is stew and dumplings and a mince pie (raisins/currant) for desert.

Despite having to struggle to type, my fingers feel like they are glued together life is good.

Have a good new week.