A Hat-Trick.

 

Roberto Matta.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roberto_Matta 

It really is a classic November day, today it has been a gloomy dark wet Sunday when being at home is the best option.

Last night we watched Match of the Day on BBC1; there were some exciting moments in most of the Premier League games.

One which I did not find very exciting was the game between Arsenal and Manchester United, sad to see that Arsenal were not good in defence.

Shame as I thought that Steve Bold, their defensive coach and former star defender would have been able to tighten up the defence.

Yesterday there was some good news about two managers, Ian Holloway who was managing Blackpool was moving to Crystal Palace.

The other good news was that Mick McCarthy, who had been sacked from Wolves, was going to be the new manager of Ipswich.

I think it would be brilliant if Owen Coyle who Bolton had dismissed as the manager would become the new manager of Blackpool, a hat-trick of moves.

After we watched the football games last night we talked for a little bit then we had to stop and concentrate on getting ready to go to sleep.

Difficult to do for the both of us as we love to talk with each other, I inhaled two vaporiser bags THC which relax me nicely.

So much so that not long after Richie switched the lights off I was fast asleep a good way for me to end the day, going to sleep without any problems.

Accept The Inevitable.

Roberto Matta

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roberto_Matta 

Since Monday I've noticed that my left arm has become much weaker, when I'm sitting doing my exercises with the Motomed I can't lift my hand to my face.

It is also not possible for me to dry my eyes with a handkerchief nor is it possible for me to adjust either my glasses or my clothing.

What I've also noticed is that I have difficulties raising my left arm adequately in order to do my arm exercises in the morning.

The other thing I am having problems with is using the THC vapour bag, I can use it in bed as I'm not sitting up too much so I don't have to fight gravity.

This latest progression is too fast for me but that is how it goes, is nothing I can about it apart from accept that this has happened and I can't change it.

Not easy for me to accept what is happening, I hate this latest development, the worst thing for me is feeling that I can do nothing.

Not easy for me as I'm not a passive person, I need to feel in control and proactive neither of which is possible with this latest progression of my multiple sclerosis.

It feels like I am in mourning for my bodily functions which are being lost to me, right now it is difficult to dictate this as I am crying too much.

What makes it worse is not been to remove my glasses and dry my face, as well as clean my glasses, which means I can hardly see the text through my tears.

In a while I will call Richie and ask him to clean my glasses and dry my tears then I will try to regain my composure.

There's nothing that I can do except to accept the inevitable, that is so difficult for me, but I have to do it as there is no other alternative for me.

The only thing I can do is what I'm doing now which is trying to make the best of a really shitty situation by being positive and making the best of it which I will do.

Positive news.

Roberto Matta                                           .  

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roberto_Matta 

Last night I slept very well which surprised me as I had been experiencing quite a lot of pain and discomfort as well as extra spasms late last night.

This morning I slept until 09.30 then I woke up abruptly because of the pain I was having due to lying badly in bed.

Richie soon corrected my position t his improved how I was feeling, some THC vapour made me feel much better.

Doing my arm exercises with Richie’s help relieved the tension in my arms and once Richie had done my leg exercises I felt even better.

A shower, clean clothes and a spray of gorgeous Lolita Lempicka  perfume as well as a pair of purple earrings soon lifted my spirits and I was ready to see our friend Anne.

It was a most pleasant visit, she is such a nice woman, always a pleasure to see her and hear her news.

The visit was over much too quickly but while it lasted it was good, yesterday afternoon I had a visit from another lovely woman friend, Cecile.

Always good to see her too, if I could I would see a lot more of both of them and they are both such good friends who it is good to see frequently.

This afternoon I called Dagma, our general practitioner, I needed to ask her some questions.

One of them was whether Mathilde my physiotherapist still needed to wear gloves during our physio sessions.

Dagma said this was no longer necessary, it had only been important to do while we were using the lotion.

She also told me that the antibiotics were having a good effect on Richie, as the results from the last swabs indicated that there were less living bacteria.

Our doctor is very optimistic that the antibiotics are working which means that Richie will soon be free of nasty bacteria.

The news is very good and has given us both a boost which we needed. It is always good to hear positive news.

Everything Went Well.

 

Oscar Dominguez.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%C3%93scar_Dom%C3%ADnguez 

Last night, Richie and I decided to change the catheter after Milou, the wound nurse had been to check on the progress of the pressure wound today.

After Milou had taken a swab and a photo of the wound she left again not before she made an appointment for three weeks time on 8^th of August.

I was trying to remain calm cool and relaxed, but wasn't really fooling either myself or Richie that I was any of those things, nevertheless I did remain calm.

Richie got me some THC vapour which I slowly inhaled by simply by placing the tube in my mouth.

Quite soon I felt myself becoming relaxed, despite noticing that Richie had been getting all the equipment assembled for the catheter change.

Watching this made me a touch apprehensive but I managed to stay pretty relaxed despite this little wobble.

Richie had no sooner got everything he needed when he started the procedure, before I knew it, Richie had emptied the catheter balloon.

Then he removed the old catheter, which I hardly noticed except for a momentary tingle and then it was out and thrown in the bin.

When I asked if he was about to put the new catheter in, Richie told me it had already been inserted, this time I had felt nothing.

Really brilliant, the whole procedure went very well, without any problems or any discomfort for me.

Richie had to laugh because apparently I looked massively relieved and overjoyed when he told me that the new catheter had been inserted.

The news about the catheter was the best news ever at that moment, as soon as I heard those words, the tension in my shoulders evaporated away.

Now it's done I feel wonderful, it really was a weight off my shoulders, only when it was gone did I realise what a burden it had been.

After a wonderful pampering shower, Richie dressed, perfumed me and put earrings in my ears and rings on my fingers.

Then he installed me comfortably back in bed where I am enjoying writing this post and looking forward to enjoying this evening with my Darling Richie.

Sunny Friday

Adam and Eve.
Ernst Fuchs.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ernst_Fuchs_%28artist%29

Feeling very crabby today, really need to get my new lenses, I have spent too long with the wrong lenses.

Just phoned the opticians, they are ready; do hope that this time the measurements are correct.

Last night THC got me off to sleep straightaway, which was brilliant, I think it was just  worrying that stopped me sleeping.

Not that the THC was not working but just that I would start to think and somehow always find something to lie wake.

Good to break this without the help of sleeping tablets or Valerian pills just THC chocolates and vapour.

I was very relaxed, so much so that I drifted back off to sleep when I woke up, not once but three times.

That is brilliant, each time it was too early and each time I slept on happily and woke pretty rested and relaxed.

A few hours with the old glasses has made me feel  stressed and strained my eyes, so looking forward to Richie getting back safely with my glasses.

It is Friday, the sun is shining and there has been a lot of bird noises today which is lovely to hear, feels like winter is nearly over soon.