Since Monday I've noticed that my left arm has become much weaker, when I'm sitting doing my exercises with the Motomed I can't lift my hand to my face.
It is also not possible for me to dry my eyes with a handkerchief nor is it possible for me to adjust either my glasses or my clothing.
What I've also noticed is that I have difficulties raising my left arm adequately in order to do my arm exercises in the morning.
The other thing I am having problems with is using the THC vapour bag, I can use it in bed as I'm not sitting up too much so I don't have to fight gravity.
This latest progression is too fast for me but that is how it goes, is nothing I can about it apart from accept that this has happened and I can't change it.
Not easy for me to accept what is happening, I hate this latest development, the worst thing for me is feeling that I can do nothing.
Not easy for me as I'm not a passive person, I need to feel in control and proactive neither of which is possible with this latest progression of my multiple sclerosis.
It feels like I am in mourning for my bodily functions which are being lost to me, right now it is difficult to dictate this as I am crying too much.
What makes it worse is not been to remove my glasses and dry my face, as well as clean my glasses, which means I can hardly see the text through my tears.
In a while I will call Richie and ask him to clean my glasses and dry my tears then I will try to regain my composure.
There's nothing that I can do except to accept the inevitable, that is so difficult for me, but I have to do it as there is no other alternative for me.
The only thing I can do is what I'm doing now which is trying to make the best of a really shitty situation by being positive and making the best of it which I will do.