Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Visit from Marianne











Amsterdam Sunsets.

Had a bad night last night that even thc could not help me get to sleep until the early hours.

Must have been a nightmare for Richie who is feeling really frazzled today.

I can sypathesise as I feel pretty crappy right now, last night was one of those nights that happens once in a while.

I guess there was a clue in how I felt in the evening, where I started to feel very sad, and started to overflow with tears that I could not control.

Had very gloomy thoughts that I found very difficult to dispel, was having a hard time thinking about how long I would have to live.

And having the feeling it would not be as long as I would want it to be.

Visited Marc's blog@The Wheelchair Kamikaze

http://www.wheelchairkamikaze.com/2009/08/at-what-price-health.html


He posted a piece called What Price Health where he asked how long would you chose to live if you knew there was a drug that could restore your condition to what it was before MS.

The deal was you could sign up as long as you realised that you would be granted a reprieve and if you say signed up for 5 years at the end of 5 yrs you would die suddenly.

It was I thought provocatively thought provoking and after not too long I chose five years as the length of time that it would take me to do everything I still want to do.

Maybe that piece set me off on my sad train of thought yesterday when I got too stuck thinking about when it is over.

I am too much of a crier too be able to speculate for even a second without getting too involved.

Am t rying to thoink cheerful thoughts right now especially as I want to be in a good frame of mind for seeing Marianne at 2 pm.

She got back from her holiday in South Africa last Thursday and phoned me soon after she got in.

She sounded very well and Richie says he saw her whizzing down the Kinkerstraat on her biycle on Saturday looking very well indeed.

Already I feel so much more cheerful just talking about the prospect of a visit from our lovely friend Marianne.

11 comments:

Charisa said...

Hope you are feeling better and enjoy your visit! Your pictures are beautiful!!

JC said...

Hope your visit is FUN ...

Celeste Maia said...

I hope Marianne was able to keep the dark thoughts away, Herrad. And that tonight will be much better than last night, that you will have more pleasant thoughts. It is inevitable, though, the arrival of those dark clouds. Let's hope the wind blows them away. Lovely photographs, as always.

Natalie Ford said...

Stunning photos! I sometimes wish that I lived in Amsterdam, a) for these views and b) for easier access to THC than in the UK!

Rain said...

Hi Herrad! I hope you had a great visit with Marianne and she cheered you up with her vacation stories! I'm so sorry you had such a bad night...wish I could wave a magic wand. I have something fun to share with you though! I went to the spa today for a swim and I got checked out by two young guys, lol! I had my sunglasses on but I was checking them out first in secret...I love my dark sunglasses for that! So I turned the other way, but I could still see them in my peripheral vision and they both looked me up and down and smiled! Made me feel a little "vavoom" ha ha! Still got it! ;-)

Herrad said...

Hi Charisa,
Thanks for asking,I am feeling alot better today.

Hi JC,
It was very nice to see Marianne this afternoon.

Hi Celeste Maia,
Marianne's visit chased the dark thought right away.

Hi Natalie,
How nice to meet you, thanks for coming by.
Good to get your visit and comment.
It is good that THC is readily available here.

Hi Rain,
Marianne's visit was very enjoyable indeed, was very cheered up and got quite a boost from seeing her again.
Nice to hear of your encouter at the spa, great fun.

Thanks everyone for coming by and commenting, really appreciate it very much.
Love
Herrad

robert said...

Good morning Herrad,
as I am in love with prime numbers, couldn't you make it a seven, eleven, thirteen, or if you could even a seventeen, twenty-three?!
Wish that you are better and a nice start into Thursday.

steve said...

OK. You have got to watch this. There is a debate going on here in the US over "end of life consultations" that are part of Obama's health care reform initiative. Opponents are calling them "death panels" in an effort to frighten the public. This is the debate in satire form on The Daily Show.

Webster said...

Glad you're feeling better today. Big hugs and smiley faces for YOU!
Just because.

Herrad said...

Hi Robert,
I think seventeen and twenty three sounds good.
Trouble is I don't understand what you mean about couldn't I make it 7 /11/13.
Hope you can clarify.

Hi Steve,
Thanks for the link will look as soon as I have posted this.

Hi Webster,
Lovely to hear from you.
I was much better.

Thanks for coming by everyone, really boosts me tremendously to see your comments.
Love,
Herrad

robert said...

Good morning Herrad,
read this and felt a bit worried:
'5 yrs you would die suddenly.' - that's why I wanted it to be at least a couple of prime number-years later...luckily there seems to be not an end of them.
Hope you are fine and i did not write anything wrong.