Saturday, April 10, 2010

Diamonds and Nuggets of Gold.

Mongolian Art.

Really amazing how quick a week goes, wonder if Richie telling me that the skin tear had healed made it go past swiftly.

It is after all a lot to do with feelings and perception of the world around, if I am not feeling well or am down time seems to crawl by.

Other times when there is good news or the weather is great, time can zoom by, this usually happens with holidays like Christmas and Easter.

It is funny how these days are a long time coming and then over before I even knew it, mind you when I was home in England with my parents these holidays seemed to go on forever.

Think that that was influenced by the fraught atmosphere at home, not one that was conducive to having a pleasant holiday or a pleasant any time.

Shame, mind you think that in the years since leaving home I have made plenty happy memories to more than make up for that sad time.

The memories of my life with my parents, in England have loomed large because that was a very important time for me.

When I look at it now, I see it was such a short time, that period between 1962 and 1969, seven years, but such vital years.

Looking at it now my big question is why my parents couldn’t have waited to move when I had finished my schooling.

Hate it when I hear people are moving just when their kids are making the transition from Primary to Secondary education.

It has been difficult for me on those occasions as my memories can just bubble up, I also can not cope if there is tension at the dinner table.

Hate witnessing meal times becoming a battleground, for little kids refusing food is often their only power.

Dinner times at home when I was a toddler, were dreadful, it was quite often open warfare between my mum and dad.

Plus all the scenes when I would not eat and all the shouting from them to persuade me to finish my food.

At my auntie Sigrid and uncle Abbie’s there never were those problems, it was always good fun there

Their attitude at meal times was ‘you are at your aunties so enjoy’ and I did and ate all my dinner without any problems.

Funny how a different attitude made all the difference, think it is important to realise that perception and attitude do make all the difference.

We were talking the other night about me being brave and very determined, guess it is still a surprise to me to be described in that way.

No longer argue against that description of me, as I am well aware that I chose and stay positive, it is my determination to stay consciously in the present.

Know that being like this is a hell of a thing to do and to achieve especially because my MS has progressed so quickly.

Life is shit in so many ways but in so many others beautiful, the MS is the shitty bit, but the friends I have made since I started my blog are the sunshine in my life.

My darling Richie is my diamond and our friends here and elsewhere in the world are my nuggets of gold.


Stephany said...

That is a beautiful post, Herrad. I believe you are a diamond, and set such a bright example to all of us. Dealing with such a fast and awful take over of your body by MS and having the grace to share your life and always encourage others, truly does make you a GEM.

HUGS and have a pleasant Saturday evening.


Travelogue for the Universe said...

You two are rare gems!

Herrad said...

Hi Stephany,
Thanks for coming by and leaving your sweet comment.
It is a pleasant evening, dinner is a delicious stir fry with fresh tofu and tempe.
Hope your afternoon and evening is good.

Anonymous said...

Life would indeed feel different without you; being reminded and having learned much from you.

Please have a wonderful Sunday you all.

Herrad said...

Hi Mary,
Thanks for your sweet comment and visit.
Think you are very special too.

Hi Robert,
Life would also be very different without you and your wonderful comments, thanks also for your visit.
Have a good Sunday.

Thanks both of you dear friends for coming by.
Good to see your comments.
Have a good day tomorrow.

Diane J Standiford said...

You are so sweet and have the most beautiful blog. I always feel good after stopping by. Isn't it wonderful to have aunts and uncles? I would have been in a bad place without mine. Peace, Diane

Rain said...

Nice post Herrad...I'm so glad we found each other!!!

Herrad said...

Hi Diane,
Thanks for your visit and comment, Auntie Sigrid was very important to me when I was growing up

.Hi Rain,
Thanks for your visit and comment, I am also so glad we met.

Thanks both of you for coming by.
Feel happy the police want round and Sigrid phoned me.
Have a good day tomorrow.

weeble said...

I'm late to this post but I had to comment that this is one of my favorites.

My husband is a treasure and my life is filled with "nuggets of gold" too. I am very fortunate and grateful.