Monday, June 14, 2010
The Sun Is Shining Again Today.
Going to keep this very short today, woke up crying this morning, after awhile got a nasty headache.
It was not a good night last night I got upset because Richie was upset, and then I said something which I did not mean which upset him alot, and me too.
Sadly once I had said it, I could not make it unsaid, no matter how much I wanted to and I really wished and still wish that I could take those stupid insensitive words back.
Feel so stupid now, this week I have had some moments of being very down, moments when I realised again, that my life now will only consist of short periods out of bed, but basically mostly being in bed.
Knew that I would not ever be able to sit for as long as I used to but somewhere I guess the illusion was still there that I could spend longer sitting in the wheelchair.
Should have told Richie how I was feeling, talking would have helped and would have allowed me to see the positives in life.
But I did not talk; I tried to ignore it after I noticed that it had got me down, hated thinking that I was never going to be as mobile as want to be.
Thing is who am I kidding, I am obviously physically not like I used to be before the MS, I know that and am also happy to make the best of everything that I can.
Somehow this little dip, as they call a down moment here took me by surprise, starting to come out of it again.
Am reappraising things now and can see that all things considering things are not as bad as I thought they were.
A kiss from my darling has cheered me considerably and really lifted my spirits.
Whatever happens with this disease, I am still me and my darling is still here with me and the sun is shining again today.
All in all life is good.