Sunday, December 11, 2011

Almost Blasé.

Jacqueline Lamba.

One minute I was sitting happily in bed, receiving my mails, opening my blog, answering comments, feeling very relaxed, then the day got derailed.

As the next minute my guts were gripped by horrible sensations, which I immediately recognized as me needing to get to the toilet extremely quickly

What it actually meant was, I should be there right now; because whatever Richie, does now will be too late, I will have crapped in my leggings in bed.

Not my favourite thing to occur, but today, I was not for one moment embarrassed or ashamed, which was good.

Not wasting my time and energy on being pointlessly upset, glad I can be like this, better then getting unnecessarily upset.

A really hateful situation, being incontinent is awful but there is nothing I can do to change it, no matter how much I may want to.

Better to be calm, like I managed to be this afternoon, knowing that once Richie showered me I would feel good once more.

Soon after I was indeed  dressed, perfumed and feeling restored which was a wonderful ending to an unpleasant experience.

Not the Sunday we were expecting, glad we can be so calm and relaxed, almost blasé, better then getting upset, when there is nothing to be done to change things.


Webster said...

Oh the indignity of this disease. It's one thing to read about it, and quite another to experience it. I am glad that the SP catheter took care of the bladder issues. I wish there was a simpler solution to the other. Would adult diapers make it any easier? You'd still have to go through the shower routine, but perhaps there would be a bit more "damage control." I don't know. I'm just glad that you and Richie can be blase about it.

Herrad said...

hi webster,
thanks for your visit, nice to start the week seeing your comment.
diapers nota a solution for discomfort.
i lie on piece of protective absorbent paper with plastic backing.
diapers can cause pressure sores.
have a pleasant week.

Diane J Standiford said...

I still battle being VERY upset by this. Oh day.

Webster, adult diapers AKA Depends only make it worse as it smashes the offender all up your body. Those diapers should be outlawed. If there is any damage control, I have not found it. Bladder is not a big issue for me as is the other end. Grrr

Here's to a calm week ahead!

Herrad said...

hi diane,
i hate it too, agree with you about diapers horrible.