Sunday, October 25, 2009
A Bright Sunny Day.
The clock went back last night, so we are now living in winter time, not my favourite time.
Not much that I can do about it so this year I will not bore everyone plus myself with going on about how much I hate winter daylight saving time.
In the past I would not change the time on my watch preferring to work out each time what the time really was.
Perhaps finally I am coming to terms with the idea that things that I can not change will not get my attention.
Could be good for me if I have learned this, as I do use up valuable energy on things I can do nothing to change.
Think that someone like Dorthe would have her card well marked these days, she was an example of a friend who one ends up tolerating because of a vague memory of friendship.
When I first knew her my self confidence had taken a nose dive, this did leave me open to peoples abuse
My self esteem has taken quite a bashing from the MS but I have managed to get to grips with that and really have understood that MS does not define me.
I am alright; I am still quite a woman even if my body won’t cooperate these days, it is not easy to be so handicapped.
As soon as I wake up in the mornings I am confronted with my bodies inability to move and the first spasms happen and my arms clamp shut as I yawn, and again I am aware of the pain.
I do my arm exercises, when I get my arm straightened out, which does seem to help, am sure that the exercises have helped me retain the use of my arms and hands.
Today has been a bright and sunny day, nice to look out of the window on sunshine and birds hopping about on the bird feeder.
Have to relearn to love this time of year again and I will once I am back outside and able to feel the wind and smell the outdoor scents.
Looking forward to the prospect of being liberated from my bed and tasting the delights of the outside world once again.