Friday, May 21, 2010
Enjoying The Moments.
It's getting warmer well it was yesterday and maybe it will be again this afternoon, this morning it was cold enough to have the heating on.
Woke up moaning this morning as I do every morning, when I wake up I feel everything again in its full intensity.
Richie got me some THC which allowed me to lie for awhile, almost drifting off if it were not for the stiff and painful arms.
Every tiny movement, even a cough or a yawn causes my arms to get even tighter and less able to stretch.
They feel like they are on springs which are getting tightened, it’s a weird sensation.
This morning we were listening to Alex Inglis talking about his dead brother Tom on BBC Radio 5.
An upsetting program about his brother who got attacked when on a night out, he had to be taken to hospital by ambulance.
On the way there he fell out of the ambulance, and suffered huge brain damage, his skull was impacted into his head.
Much of his skull had to be removed; he ended up being on breathing and feeding tubes, plus a machine to empty his lungs every couple of minutes.
There was no chance of recovery to any sort of life for the young man; he was just 20 when it happened and 22 when he died.
After many operations it became clear that there was only one option, which was withdrawing food and drink.
And to starve and de-hydrate him which is a horrible way to die, it is the one which is used as the acceptable form of euthanasia.
Tom’s mother could not bear seeing her son suffer any longer, nor did she want to see him slowly dying of thirst and starvation.
So she bought heroin and injected him with it, he died and she was arrested and has been sentenced to life in prison for killing her son.
It is a very sad story, that was heart breaking to hear all the details, Frances Inglis is now serving a prison sentence of 9 years for killing her 22 year old son.
Makes me appreciate my situation where Richie does not have to make the difficult decision to help me exit when everything becomes too much for me.
Personally I would like to be here for as long as possible.
When the time comes there will be no cause for any additional grief because I can not exit when I want to.
In the meantime I am enjoying the warm weather and the birds on the bird feeder.
Right here right now I am enjoying the moments.
I hope that Steve from The Wheel of Fortuna can start to enjoy the moment despite his grief at the death of his beloved partner BobRobert a month ago on 23 April.
It has been brilliant to see that Steve got support from the blog world, I am not going to mention him daily as I have been but hope that you will continue to support him in building his new life.