Friday, May 21, 2010

Enjoying The Moments.

Kitsch Art.

It's getting warmer well it was yesterday and maybe it will be again this afternoon, this morning it was cold enough to have the heating on.

Woke up moaning this morning as I do every morning, when I wake up I feel everything again in its full intensity.

Richie got me some THC which allowed me to lie for awhile, almost drifting off if it were not for the stiff and painful arms.

Every tiny movement, even a cough or a yawn causes my arms to get even tighter and less able to stretch.

They feel like they are on springs which are getting tightened, it’s a weird sensation.

This morning we were listening to Alex Inglis talking about his dead brother Tom on BBC Radio 5.

An upsetting program about his brother who got attacked when on a night out, he had to be taken to hospital by ambulance.

On the way there he fell out of the ambulance, and suffered huge brain damage, his skull was impacted into his head.

Much of his skull had to be removed; he ended up being on breathing and feeding tubes, plus a machine to empty his lungs every couple of minutes.

There was no chance of recovery to any sort of life for the young man; he was just 20 when it happened and 22 when he died.

After many operations it became clear that there was only one option, which was withdrawing food and drink.

And to starve and de-hydrate him which is a horrible way to die, it is the one which is used as the acceptable form of euthanasia.

Tom’s mother could not bear seeing her son suffer any longer, nor did she want to see him slowly dying of thirst and starvation.

So she bought heroin and injected him with it, he died and she was arrested and has been sentenced to life in prison for killing her son.

It is a very sad story, that was heart breaking to hear all the details, Frances Inglis is now serving a prison sentence of 9 years for killing her 22 year old son.

Makes me appreciate my situation where Richie does not have to make the difficult decision to help me exit when everything becomes too much for me.

Personally I would like to be here for as long as possible.

When the time comes there will be no cause for any additional grief because I can not exit when I want to.

In the meantime I am enjoying the warm weather and the birds on the bird feeder.

Right here right now I am enjoying the moments.

I hope that Steve from The Wheel of Fortuna can start to enjoy the moment despite his grief at the death of his beloved partner BobRobert a month ago on 23 April.

It has been brilliant to see that Steve got support from the blog world, I am not going to mention him daily as I have been but hope that you will continue to support him in building his new life.


steve said...

Hi Herrad - The blogging community has been a fantastic support. I've also got my niece, my friends and neighbors, and my job helping me get through. I'm not one to stay down for long, and the reconstruction has already begun.

Take care, darlin'.

Gareth said...

Hi folks just popping by to say a BIG HELLO, what a awfully sad story. So glad your in Holland also glad I keept me citizenship for this reason alone. Us both well enjoying the sunshine at last. got our Punk night to night so will spin some tunes for ya Lots of LOVE @ HUGS GX

Meeko Fabulous said...

Oh my gosh! How does one fall out of an ambulance! That's just horrible! Hope you're doing well. Here visiting from Rain's. :)

Stephany said...

Herrad, Your compassion for human beings shows everytime you write.

I am glad to read Steve's comment above, that he is beginning to reconstruct life, and that he has friends and family to support him.

Hugs to all of you

Herrad said...

Hi Stevem
Good to hear from you, even better to hear you are doing well with the support of Jordan and friends and neighbours and your job.
You take care too.

Hi Gareth,
Tom Inglis is a sad story, hope they release Frances Inglis soon.
Hope your punk night is good fun.

Hi Meeko,
This is a mystery, wonder why a paramedic was not in the back with him.
I am ok today.
Nice to meet you, thanks for coming by.

Thanks everyone for coming by really good to see your comments.
Have a good afternoon/evening.

Anonymous said...

Gosh Herrad, that is a terrible story. I'm so glad you live in Amsterdam where you have humane choices.

Herrad said...

Hi Rain,
I am glad I live here too.
Have a good evening.

Herrad said...

Hi Stephany,
Thanks for your kind comment, I was also very cheered by reading Steve's comment.
Good to know he is well supported.
Have a good weekend.