Monday, January 11, 2010
Another Cold and Icy Winters Day.
Spike slept in his bed in the front room, which meant that I managed to get off to sleep without too many problems last night.
It certainly made a pleasant change to drift off to sleep without Spike walking around and clicking loudly.
Night before last, three times just as I was about to drift off he jumped up and started walking around.
Being Spike he can't do that quietly, he walks abit like a wee gun slinger, you can almost hear his spurs dragging on the floor.
And being me I can’t help being upset by it, which certainly doesn’t help me to sleep, on the contrary it directly stops me.
So always try to not react to hearing Spike moving around, but it is difficult not to get annoyed.
As soon as I get annoyed I am too involved in Spike and have totally forgotten the main plan, which was falling asleep.
Hate the way that I can start thinking about things I have ignored successfully all during the day.
I do my very best to switch these thoughts off as soon as they happen, hate how all day and evening I do not think of them.
And literally seconds before sleep, as Richie is turning the light off all the thoughts I do not want come flooding in to my mind.
It is a bloody nuisance, and happens to me every time when I am worried about things, just funny how after a day long absence every thought is intact and ready for me to get worried about all over again.
Glad that right now there is nothing that is worrying me apart from the habit of worrying which seems to be the most difficult of all to stop.
Right now I am inhaling a bag of THC as I am in quite a lot of pain today, while it is still daylight I shall enjoy looking out of the window.
Today is another cold and icy day, with a hint that it may not last so very long, hope it thaws soon and by the end of January, the gradual start of spring will be around us.