What a horrid shock, when I realised that I was incontinent, what was particularly horrible was how quickly it happened once I could no longer walk.
That occurred much too quickly once I got my diagnosis on 19th July 2006, suddenly without any warning one morning in October my ability to walk ceased.
It was horrible especially as I had appointments at the Amsterdam Rehabilitation clinic and the mobility bus would be arriving to pick me at any minute.
At first I found it to be dreadfully embarrassing, it felt like it made me into another being, which was unsettling, it made me extremely uneasy.
It totally freaked me out and made me feel somehow less of a woman, and not myself not at all, it was worrying, it made me unsure of myself and who I was.
On the 19th July 2006 it felt like my life was over and since then I have been trying my best to make the best of everything, together with my darling Richie.