Monday, August 02, 2010
Still Looking Forward To Good Times.
Drive By Truckers
Sadly I have another open pressure sore so had to stop sitting right away yesterday until it heals again, hopefully before the end of summer.
My estimation is that this, like in January will take a few months so I guess summer will be well gone by then, but of course I still hope that it will heal before then.
Richie saw it when he showered me yesterday afternoon, we are both shattered by this discovery.
We are trying to regain our optimism which is difficult to do under these circumstances, both of us had a very bad night last night.
Every time I was nearly dropping off to sleep I would find myself thinking about this new wound and how it had happened and so quickly too.
This happened every time I woke up, each time I woke and each time I would try to focus on something else, would try to visualise a flower or a favourite place.
But each time I woke the first thing in my mind was the horror of another pressure sore in the same place.
What we both find very worrying is that we do not know how it happened; this is very worrying especially for Richie.
Had hoped to sit longer this time but after just three days I have to stay in bed until it heals again.
Sat exactly three times, the longest was four hours on Friday, each day there was no signs of there being anything wrong.
Hope that it heals up again soon and that I can sit for long enough to get out to see the market and other favourite places in Amsterdam.
We have plans to go to a Drive by Truckers gig at the Paradiso in November which would be brilliant for us both.
Really hope it can still happen, feeling very down today, what a difference a week can make, last Monday Richie confirmed that the skin damage had healed.
We were both very happy, looking forward to getting out of the apartment together and having a life outside.
This Monday I have an open wound and have to do my best to stay in the here and now and be optimistic.
Anything else would be not be good for either of us as we need to get through this with positivity.
Still looking forward to the good times that I hope are still to come.