Metamorphising of Gaddafi.
By Steve Bell.
Most of the time I am optimistic but sometimes I get gripped by panic and fear, not surprising being on this MS rollercoaster.
Scary not knowing what will happen next, maybe better that way, rather than knowing precisely what will happen.
I still have to remind myself to live here and now, not with a list that I tick off daily, which function I have lost.
The unpredictable nature of MS keeps me feeling worried, which I do my best to not let it control me.
Focussing on the positive, is my best optlan, while I am conscious, when I am asleep my dreams are generally pleasant.
Sometmes I will wake from a scary one, but that is rare, I think this is because I try to discuss my fears and worries with Richie and write about it.
Certainly helps to stop me wasting valuble time worrying, especially now I am aware of how precious time is.
I have become extremely aware that each day is unique and will never happen twice, an amazing thought.
The weather is not very pleasant again today, typical weather for the beginning of March, on the 17 March I shall be 60, we are going to have a party on the 18 March.