Cyril in Rembrandtspark 9th July 2011.
Today is another relaxed day, I am sure this is all thanks to Anja’s visit yesterday and her helping me with my paperwork.
Felt so good last night to be free of stress, realised again that getting upset so often about things I can’t influence is a waste of my time and energy.
I hope that this fact will finally sink in, so often I find myself getting worked up by events that I can not influence.
So if that true I intend in future to stop getting upset and try to focus on things that I can do something about.
I feel more confident that I will be able to stop myself getting upset about things, events that I can not change.
The other thing want to stop doing is reproaching myself, and giving myself a hard time, as I do so frequently.
When I got the letter from Agis that I would get cannabis on prescription instead of just being happy at this success, I had to reproach myself for not writing sooner.
As soon as I reproached myself I became conscious of what I was doing, instead I concentrated on enjoying the incredible good result Anja’s letter achieved.
Feels so much better to give myself credit for getting things done, without immediately giving myself a hard time.