Monday, September 06, 2010
I Need To Concentrate On The Positives In My Life And I Do.
The other day I had a moment of totally clarity where I did a sort of mental double take as I thought that there is really no need for me to worry about what is happening and what will happen.
No need at all as I can not alter the course of my MS, so wish that I could but I can not do anything to stop the inevitable progression of the disease.
What I can do though is make my life easier by not getting panicked and not worrying both those emotions are so draining, they take away too much of my valuable energy.
Those emotions are too negative and instead of helping me focus on the moment keep me worrying about what will happen.
It was good to realise again that I can focus on the positives in my life and not the negative aspects.
This does not mean that I won’t recognise what is happening because I do; I am very much a realist.
Do not want to swap worrying and fabricate an illusion where nothing is wrong, not that I can do that as my body is a stark reminder of the effects of my MS.
As soon as I yawn my arms get all cramped up, so waking up and yawning makes for a horrible few seconds of being stuck as my arms weld themselves together.
My arm exercises help me to straighten my arms and use my hands, two very important functions for me.
Recently bee getting upset at the thought that my arms and hands will soon not be functioning well or maybe not at all.
How will I/we manage when that happens is a question that I can not answer now, I am sure we will see how to manage it when it happens.
For now my arms and hands work, typing is becoming frustrating as my little fingers constantly touch letter and numbers that I had not intended to.
Makes for a lot of editing but that does not bother me, I am glad and happy to be here, to be able to share my daily story in my blog.
The sun is shining just now and I am listening to some good classical music on BBC Radio 3, so much better than having to listen to gossip or about the Blitz on the other channels.
A sunny day like today makes all the difference to how I feel and right here and right now I am feeling good.
Going to enjoy my day very much, especially now I have clarified things for myself once more.
Why fight against myself when right now I need to concentrate on the positives in my life and I do.