Slept quite quickly and soundly until early this morning when I woke up very suddenly feeling hot, like my entire body was on fire.
An unpleasant sensation which I thought at first might be the catheter coming out or changing position, until I realised the feeling was moving around my body.
Did not feel that there had been or there was any catheter movement at all so decided it was ‘just’ the MS.
Putting my arms outside the duvet soon stopped me feeling so hot, luckily that happened pretty fast and I cooled down enough for me to wrestle my arms quickly back under the duvet.
It did not stop the feeling of flames flickering over my body, but I just decided to ignore this especially as there was nothing I can do about it.
Lay here thinking about tomorrow and my first hospital appointment, felt myself getting all worked up and upset.
Stopped that at once, said to myself that there was no point in getting upset as it was going to happen whatever I did.
Getting worked up would only upset me and make things difficult, when what I need to do is make things easier.
Deciding to stop being upset was very good, typical of me, always do this get upset and worried until right before the moment itself when I just accept reality and get on with it.
No point fighting something that I need now in order to make my life less stressful, life is too short to waste it.
Not when I want to be here and now, enjoying all the moments that I can and I will.