Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Emotional Tuesday.


Le Cirque.
Jacqueline Lamba.
An emotional day today, my hands and especially my arms are getting so much weaker now, I can hardly lift them.

I started crying towards the end of my shower, Richie asked me why and when I sobbed, because I think I may not be alive for much longer.

He said all the more reason to enjoy life now, I also sobbed don’t let them take me away and he said he never would.

I said but what about when my arms stop working and I can’t put my arm up for you to dress me, he said I will find a way.   

What a good friend Richie is, I really love him so very much, he makes my life so much better, especially now.

His words tonight have made me feel better, the residual sadness and pain is still there but do not have the upper hand.

That has been replaced by being reassured again of Richie’s total commitment to support and care for me.

I feel very comforted by his words and by the love we have for each other, which nothing, not even this horrible roller coaster MS progression has changed.

I feel very fortunate to have met such a wonderful man as Richie in April 1989, pretty much when I thought that I would not meet my soul mate, I was wrong and I am glad that I was.


Bibliotekaren said...


I'm so glad you did meet your soul mate and have such a deep connection. However, I'm sad that it's being tested so rigorously.


janis said...

I too am glad for the love of Richie. He is a wonderful man that loves wonderful you.
I feel so selfish and petty. My problems seem so big to me but really are not.
You are amazing.
I have learned so much from you & so grateful for your friendship.
love janis

Muffie said...

Herrad, you two are so devoted to each other, I don't think anything could separate you. I'm sorry you were feeling so blue, but I'm glad Richie could cheer you up a bit.

Webster said...

Herrad, I'm sorry your arms are bring so problematic for you. I do enjoy reading of your great love for each other. As tough as MS is for you, it must be that tough for Richie, too. My hope for you both is that you each remain strong and try to laugh every day.

JC said...

I've been busy with my own life and haven't had time to stop by to visit you.

I am so sorry that your ms is being so very mean to you.

I'm glad you have Richie to help you. I hope you feel better emotionally. It's all a mental game now ...

Hugs to you and know that I do care,

xo xo xo

JC ^,,^

Herrad said...

Hi Karen,
Thanks for your kind problem, I am glad we met too.
You are right this MS is a horrible test.

Hi Janis,
Thanks for your visit and comment, I disagree you are a wonderful person not selfish, petty and your problems are real.
I am also glad we met, good to be friends.

Hi Muff,
Thanks for your kind comment, Richie makes my life so good.

Hi Webster,
Thanks for coming by, you are right,it is very hard for Richie.
We laugh everyday.

Hi JC,
Lovely to see your comment, I hope you are well.
You are right about it being a mental game.
Hugs to you too, I know you care,it is reciprocated.

Thanks you 5 dear friends for coming by means alot to me to see your comments