Monday, February 22, 2010
Fresh Apple Juice.
Fourth day of feeling really crap with this stinking cold, all too easy to get very down as everything feels worse.
Right now my whole body aches and it feels all skewed like my spine has got twisted and one hip is higher than the other.
Have to call Richie and ask him to adjust my body so that I can sit better, my problem is that everything feels so uncomfortable, that a new pain hardly registers.
Well not right away and then it goes off like a fire alarm and my body suddenly registers and reacts to the new situation.
Then my reactions are all exaggerated as I feel it all very clearly.
Strange to have this delay in feeling things and yet at other times any change is noticed immediately.
It does not matter whether it is a change from cold to hot or the other way, whatever the change I won’t like it.
Initially it all feels nasty and cold when really the heating has been on for ages and it is roasting hot and Richie is dissolving in the heat and I feel very cold.
Strange how the signals from nerves have all become scrambled and nothing is how it feels, very odd.
Sometimes I get these horrible feelings of pain that don’t actually exist, just distorted messages that my nerves are sending each other.
Wish I could send a message back’’ get out of my body now’’
If only it were mind over matter then we would all be cured.
Back in the real world it is a grey rainy and thoroughly unpleasant day outdoors, Richie and the dogs looked happy to be back home just now.
The fresh apple juice and the paracetamol and THC did me good just now, feel tiny bit less stressed than 30 minutes ago.
Also had a nice lunch of fried potatoes and cauliflower cheese (last nights dinner) which has given me quite a boost.