Saturday, March 14, 2009
What a different day it is today, started off really lovely with gorgeous sunshine but since then its got more cloudy and overcast and now there is a grey ceiling over the city.
Now I really believe spring is on its way as we are getting the grey ceiling days oh well who cares when we have sun in our hearts.
Hope Amelia is getting some sun in Devon and her pain is getting less, be brilliant if it were getting better really hope so.
Please visit her at http://talesoflifewithmultiplesclerosis.blogspot.com/2009/03/strange-numbness-but-its-painful.html
Been thinking about her lots, if only we could achieve things by the power of thinking we would all be well.
Mind over matter sadly does not cure us of this horrible disease its a shame as we all have to assert ourselves daily against MS.
Nothing can really prepare you for this and maybe thats ok, would I have wanted to know what was going to happen to me.
Would I have wanted to know that I would end up having to be in bed for over 6 months its now 7 months in bed.
All I can do with my hands is type and eat and drink all very important and actually very pleased that I can now use my left indexfinger to type at the same time as the right index finger.
I do arm exercises when the fysio is here I use weights
Have not been able to sit upright since I am in bed could not do it at first as the sore was too deep to permit me doing that.
So have been sitting abit slumped which makes eating and drinking difficult.
Been having to lie around is not so easy really aware that its not good fo0r the body all the more reason to do the arm and shoulder exercises.
Very important that Richie massages and moves my legs every morning and the fysio comes twice a week and that every night I use the motomed.
An excellent machine keeps the blood ciculating,stops feet and legs getting swollen and promotes healing and is good for my spirits.
Difficult to stay optimistic and cheerful now I can do so little but there is no choice asa to do anything else would be so very bad for me.
Being cheerful and opimistic and enjoying what I have is the only way I can go the other option would be so very bad for me.
It would kill me so really my choice has been for myself,purely selfish and in my own interest.
Its also very good for Richie and I and makes the time that we have so mcu better, this does not mean that I don't have down days cos I do but thats life in all its beauty.
Love life perhaps even more than I did hope that I can keep feeling like this and keep enjoying my life despite the shit.
Heres to the pearls of life.