Monday, March 30, 2009
Lovely morning today bright and sunny with gorgeous blue skies made me really happy especially as the morning routine helped again.
Last night just before Richie turned the light off he kissed me and I started to cry, could not have been able to put it into words.
It was of course the whole situation, having to cope with the fast progression of this horrible disease.
That is so very difficult and more each day as I see and feel the effects of the progression of the MS.
What is worrying me is that the disease is moving forward so very fast that it is difficult to come to terms with.
If only the MS could stop progressing for abit but there is no let up and I have to eventually accept that I will lose what I can do now.
At some point swallowing, talking and sight will be difficult and indeed not functioning any more.
At least I am in a better situation than Debbie Purdey in England who is forced to go to the Dignitss euthanasia clinic in Zurich earlier as then she can still travel alone.
If she waited until life became too difficult she would not be able to travel alone and anyone helping her travel could get taken to court and prosecuted for helping her die.
At least here I can stay at home and when I decide enough is enough I can get our lovely GP to come and help me, I don't need to go to Zurich I can stay at home.
It is not my favorite topic would rather be alive but not when I can no longer be fully alive in the way that is acceptable to me.