Sunday, May 24, 2009
Life has changed so drastically that I can not contribute anything now to my daily care apart from doing the arm exercises.
It is tremendously frustrating to not be even able to squeeze toothpaste on to a toothbrush or pluck a hair out of my chin or file my nails.
Hate not being able to do anything for myself not even little thing, have lost sensitivity in my fingers so can not feel things and therefore do not get any information anymore through touch.
Do still feel pain, have a lot of pain and discomfort in my hands that are recently cramping up more which means a constant battle to hold the mouse.
Other times my hands are in constant pain with every now and then an electric shock, when it is hot weather they feel like swollen sausages and are quite painful.
Not easy to assess what is happening with the progression of MS, it is not easy to live with it, it tends to burst in uninvited and squat your life forever
Really hate being so dependant, gets me very frustrated and cross, emotions I try my best not to let fester by shouting and swearing when I am in the bathroom.
Always feels better after shouting it away from me, seem to remember that the Jungians recommend screaming as therapy.
Don’t really need a guru of whatever persuasion to tell me stuff that is logical, guess that is why I am never attracted to self help books these days.
I am already helping myself with help from others and giving help to others too so a mutual aid society which is how the planet really needs to be organised.
Shame that the same sort of time, personnel and money that goes into making weapons of mass destruction can’t be used to make life better for all people.
Why spend so much time and money working out how to kill people, seems an odd focus when doing good and being helpful to your neighbours is less effort and could produce a better effect and be pro people and pro planet.
It is a sad fact that there are far too many people suffering from MS and other progressive diseases.
Which could be different if resources similar to what is put into arms research or space travel were put into medical research (not by pharma companies) and ways of cultivating your own food.
Real shame that killing people is still the favourite pastime for our rulers and getting us all worked up about potential threats to us when the biggest threat is us. So that the killing can be justified.
If only all the time, effort and resources were being used for good things we would all be happier and healthier than we are now.
To much concentration on competing for the biggest slice and forgetting the benefits of
co operation which is pro people and pro planet.
When the bees die and all the rivers and seas are polluted we can not live on money and possessions.
That’s why we need to get together to change things right here and now starting in your own neighbourhood.
Here’s hoping for a better life for all and Yes We Can Do It!