Friday, December 04, 2009
Had an unexpected hard time falling asleep last night, was quite upsetting especially as I had thought I had solved my insomnia problem.
At 3 am had to accept it was not going to happen so took a relaxant and that seemed to help me as I slept after about 20 minutes.
Slept until 11 am which was very nice, felt rested and quite relaxed, until I yawned and then my arms cramped up and my legs had a huge spasm.
Instantly felt all the pain again, which was too much for me this morning so I cried, had a real good howl and let it all out.
Cried out all the pain and all the frustration of being dependant for everything, my biggest frustration is not being able to move my body.
Hate that I can only move my arms and can only pull my head and shoulders off the mattress with the help of the hand hold which hangs over my bed.
When I started crying Spike came and stood next to my bed and started crying along with me, until Richie put him up on the bed.
He then set about diligently licking my hands and then he moved in on my neck and face and tracked down every single tear and licked it up.
After awhile I started to feel very damp but by the time the wee dog had stopped and was allowing me to stroke his head, he seemed to be very pleased with himself.
And so he should be as by the time he had finished I was feeling much better, he is a lovely little dog, he is always very concerned about me.
Very sweet that Spike is so concerned about me, he is a very nice little dog, he really does seem to be very fond of me.
Today there has been a tight cloud cover, everything was grey and it rained pretty much the whole day.
A very good friend Anja, came to visit us which was brilliant, really nice to see her, we had a great visit.
Of course before we knew it the time had flown by and it was 5.30 and she had to say goodbye and go to catch her train home.
It was a very good visit, Anja is going to try to come back next week which would be excellent.