Still Optimistic Despite The MS.

 

“Ten Blue Eyes”
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Had a pleasant day yesterday even though I was in quite alot of pain, my hands and arms cramping up and locking together woke me up, together with a big spasm.

Funny how I have got used to living with pain, glad it does not stop me being myself and being cheerful and optimistic.

But it does give me a lot to struggle against in order to be able to be myself which is always positive.

Guess it is not too difficult to do because I am very cheerful and optimistic by nature; nothing seems to change that which is brilliant.

Good to see that even this horrible disease that has taken me on such a horrible trip where around every corner there is yet another nasty surprise, has not diminished me.

Being myself is very important for me and now that I am wearing earrings and brooches and necklaces again, I feel even more me.

I enjoy wearing my pretty sparkly things again and getting Richie to spray me with perfume, have to stock up on some new ones soon as I am down to my last two bottles.

The Lolita Lempicka and Jean Paul Gaultier are the ones I still have, my Christian Dior three Poisons perfumes and the Kylie Minogue and Roma by Laura Baggio and the Angel are all finished as is the gorgeous Escada.

I enjoy perfume and my jewellery too much to let MS stop me enjoying them; they are so much part of me now that when I do not wear them it feels very strange.

For the first year in bed I did not wear any jewellery or perfume which contributed to making me quite depressed.

Since end of April this year I have been able to sit intermittently in my wheelchair and started putting on earring and perfume which really helped my mood enormously.

Now I wear them everyday and feel truly me once more and that is good despite the MS.